you are just a married whore
don't mind #60 whoever that thoughtless person is...
anyway, I believe that you have all your ducks in a row and you are doing everything you can to save you family & marriage. I'm sure you're very sorry, you sounded honest to god; regretful.
We are all human & we all screw up, this doesn't justify whats happened but hopefully, this is a lesson learned for you and NOT repeated.
Time will help heal things w/hard work on your end and before you know it, you will be okay. Even though this will not be forgotten it will be forgiven, so have faith in that.
Good luck and I hope by this point things are getting a little easier/better for you and your family.
Don't worry your family loves you!
We are all little confused, dear.
Make a decision.
Deal with it.