I am in love with a man I used to work with. I fooled around with him. No skin contact, just high school fondling. I want this guy so bad that I constantly make a fool of myself whenever I have the opportunity to talk to him, so that I end up coming off as a desperate loser. He no longer talks to me, but my feelings for him go on. Haha. Pathetic.

I am also in a 2 year relationship. It is crap. The guy is so selfish in bed.

Aside from that, I've cheated with like, 4 or 5 guys. He doesn't know. How is this teaching him any kind of lesson? What the hell am I doing?