Still Haunts Me....

During my late preteens and very early teens I actually participated in two separate porn vids with girls, one girl was my age and the other girl slightly older. Recorded by my older boy cousin whom I had already had sex with. None of our parents ever found out but I have no idea what ever happened to those vids since my cousin's unexpected recent passing. Those vids haunt me, just knowing that they just might be out there somewhere. It's embarrassing that I was so naive and gullible at the time when I was young.