Then why don't you change your life before you end up with AIDS, or murdered?
I hope you get the help you need and find some peace of mind and spirit.
Go to salvation army. They have free rehab services.
Please get some help. Do it because you are worth it, and deserve to live a better life. Both sides of my family has struggled with alcoholism, which I'm sure is fairly common, but I've lost relatives, and seen first hand how destructive alcoholism can be. It's one of the worst substance abuse issues, and the health implications from long term abuse can be fatal. You're young, and you have a life ahead of you, but the decision to embrace sobriety has to be your own, and you need to believe you're worth it, which you are.
I don't care what you've done, or what your past might contain, all that matters is how you approach tomorrow. Please get help. Sobriety isn't easy, but, as the saying goes, the juice is worth the squeeze. Nothing worth anything comes easy.
Ty for all your positive replys
You might want to consider that you are Bipolar. Just saying, from experience...I wish you the best no matter what you decide to do.
Learn to meditate. Learn to breathe. Find your true self. You don't need the approval of others. I am sure your life has value. Through meditation you can become one with the universe. Think of how much stronger you will be by healing yourself.
I could tell you the story about 4 of my closest friends who all died from liver damage. One was 47, the other was 51, and the final one was 54. They drank because life was easier to face drunk. I told each one I would come to their funerals when they died, and I did.
Through meditation I have learned to face the world head on. My life has been fucked up for other reasons. Mostly stupidity on my own part. Have a good journey.
Get ibogaine treatments, ibogaine has almost 100% cure rate for heroin addicts and alcoholics. It's not legal in the United States but it's legal in a whole bunch of other countries including a few European countries. If you have anybody left in this world that loves you they could help you out financially to get there and get those treatments then do it you won't regret it. Do your research find out what it's all about ibogaine is amazingly effective. They give you treatment over a. Of a week and then depending on what you can afford they keep you there in a womb like environment for a few more weeks that's not necessary but it sure helps, but you can walk out of there in a week cured.
Again thanks for the advice , I am right now trying to figure out where I am and what happened over the weekend.