Straight Female / 25
I got married young, not in age but in spirit. I was 22 and out of college and I met him at a reception for another friend that was getting married, and he was eligible, older of course with a good job and never married, no kids and he had a good reputation. He was prince charming in the flesh and he courted me and I got married.
So far so good, but I was 22 in body but in mind I was sixteen. I was just not mature enough to get married. When he danced with me all was fine, when he took my hand and started to undress me all was not fine. I was a virgin, in mind and body, I just could not let him take my clothes off and see me naked and I could not get in bed with him. We did not have sex on our wedding night, or the next night or at all on our honeymoon. We came back from our honeymoon and I was as virgin as I was the day I got married. Like I said, I was sixteen at heart.
But he never said anything, I moved in with him and he slept in one room and I slept in the other. I did other things, but not really. He had to hire a maid service. I got a job working for a business publishing house and got fired for not paying attention to detail. I got fired from my next job for daydreaming and not coming back to work after lunch because I was at the mall and lost track of time.
I had to go on a daily allowance, no credit cards, no checking account. I got a daily allowance and I had to call and let him know where I was and who I was with. Of course no boys, I only hung out with girls. I was a virgin on my first anniversary and a virgin after my first anniversary. The most that he had ever seen was me in a bathing suit because I never showed myself in my underwear. I was so naïve that it did not cross my mind that he was having an affair with a girl that worked with him. She was divorced and the affair was sexual.
I turned 25 and he sat me down and told me that the time had come for me to accept that I was married and he had the right to insist on sex. He told me that I was going to sleep with him come hell or high water, and I was going to get naked and get in bed come hell or high water, and he was going to have sex with me come hell or high water. I did not take my clothes off.
I was not hot, I have never been hot. I slept with him, and I used the same bathroom as him, and I started to take care of some of the house and he gave me a limited credit card. Of course I do not work, after I got fired the second time I never went back to work.
He has his work girlfriend. To show me how to get hot, she was going to teach me. He asked her to speak with me, she talked to me about my problem. No I had never been m****ted, no I was a complete and total virgin when I got married, no I had nothing against men, no I had never had a crush on a girl, I have just never had sex. I don't feel anything.
But she is the one that knows how to make love with him. I know I am supposed to feel that for my husband to get hot so he can have sex with me. But that feeling I am supposed to feel, I have never felt it. She has that feeling but I don't.
So far so good, but I was 22 in body but in mind I was sixteen. I was just not mature enough to get married. When he danced with me all was fine, when he took my hand and started to undress me all was not fine. I was a virgin, in mind and body, I just could not let him take my clothes off and see me naked and I could not get in bed with him. We did not have sex on our wedding night, or the next night or at all on our honeymoon. We came back from our honeymoon and I was as virgin as I was the day I got married. Like I said, I was sixteen at heart.
But he never said anything, I moved in with him and he slept in one room and I slept in the other. I did other things, but not really. He had to hire a maid service. I got a job working for a business publishing house and got fired for not paying attention to detail. I got fired from my next job for daydreaming and not coming back to work after lunch because I was at the mall and lost track of time.
I had to go on a daily allowance, no credit cards, no checking account. I got a daily allowance and I had to call and let him know where I was and who I was with. Of course no boys, I only hung out with girls. I was a virgin on my first anniversary and a virgin after my first anniversary. The most that he had ever seen was me in a bathing suit because I never showed myself in my underwear. I was so naïve that it did not cross my mind that he was having an affair with a girl that worked with him. She was divorced and the affair was sexual.
I turned 25 and he sat me down and told me that the time had come for me to accept that I was married and he had the right to insist on sex. He told me that I was going to sleep with him come hell or high water, and I was going to get naked and get in bed come hell or high water, and he was going to have sex with me come hell or high water. I did not take my clothes off.
I was not hot, I have never been hot. I slept with him, and I used the same bathroom as him, and I started to take care of some of the house and he gave me a limited credit card. Of course I do not work, after I got fired the second time I never went back to work.
He has his work girlfriend. To show me how to get hot, she was going to teach me. He asked her to speak with me, she talked to me about my problem. No I had never been m****ted, no I was a complete and total virgin when I got married, no I had nothing against men, no I had never had a crush on a girl, I have just never had sex. I don't feel anything.
But she is the one that knows how to make love with him. I know I am supposed to feel that for my husband to get hot so he can have sex with me. But that feeling I am supposed to feel, I have never felt it. She has that feeling but I don't.
