I heard specific details about the sexual abuse of a girl on t.v recently. Hearing it made me feel sick and want to throw up. I tried very hard not to think about it because it makes me sick and sad. But it also gives me a flushed and turned on feeling. I let myself think about it while my husband was eating my pussy, and I came harder than I have in months. I feel kinda ashamed and I'm wondering WHY something that makes me sick also makes me so horny??

While we're talking about my closet sadism, I also get off on the sexual abuse of animals, especially small dogs.

What the hell is wrong with me?