I know this is insane and perverted but I've been getting spanked by the pastor of my church. I know what we are doing is borderline sexual. I know it's wrong. I'm not going into the details of how it started. It started under the auspices of him giving me pastoral counselling. I like getting spanked, okay? I'm a perv. And I guess he is a perv too because here we are doing this. It's getting weirder and weirder and worse and worse. Once a week I come to his office. We don't even pretend councel anymore. I just pull up my skirt and bend over his desk. He uses his belt which he folds in half. He gives me twenty swats, very slowly. I cry and beg and plead for more. God help me, I do. I know it's wrong to be doing this. I get so wet. And he gets hard.

Okay, I wasn't going to admit it, even here anonymously, but we had sex. A month ago was the first time. He was spanking me and it was faster than usual. And when he finished I started to get up, but he pushed me back down. I turned to see and he was fumbling with his pants with his free hand. And it was so fast. I knew what he was going to do and I spread my legs apart and he grinded up against me, pushing inside me. And it was hard and fast and I cried the whole time, and begged the whole time for him to keep going. After we finished, he was upset by what we'd done and prayed for forgiveness. And then I asked him to spank me again, severely. So I bent back over the desk and he whipped me til I had welts. And I thanked him and got out of there in a hurry.

I didn't go back for any more appointments for councelling but today I got a call from him. I shouldn't have answered but I did and he asked me casually if I was coming to be councelled. And I said that I would. And tonight I'm going and I know I shouldn't because I know we'll have sex again and I know its wrong. And I hope he whips my ass til I have welts again because looking at them in the mirror was such a turn on and I am such an awful person. He's married and a pastor!