After I turned 50 I started to wonder about getting together with a man. I was traveling a lot, we had opened a new factory and as the head of security I was there every two weeks. I was away from home and found myself perusing the local want adds of an underground paper, craigslist, I joined a couple of male dating sites, hung out at this diner late at night, found a good number of nice websites with gay men. Definitely turned off to the jock image, young or old, I was looking more and more to men my age, gray hair, not fit, guys with a bit of a gut, those turned me on.

I joined a couple of dating sites for older men looking for men. One in particular had a travelers section and I would post when I was out of town and I picked up this call out from a man, also a traveler, who was going to be in Omaha the same time I was there. We exchange emails. By then I had set up a special purpose email on Yahoo and we agreed to meet. He was on the other side of town, but we agreed to get together at this steak house mid way. If it didn't work out, we would at least have a good steak and call it an experience worth looking into. By email we agreed, we both admitted it was our first time doing this sort of stuff.

He turned out to be more of an executive type, I am ex military learned my trade from the bottom up. We had a good dinner, and after dinner we just said, we were there because we wanted dick. We went to a motel near by and I rented the room and we went showed our dicks to each other. I mean, how do you start. Well you start by sucking dick. I sat on the bed and sucked his dick. It wasn't hard, I mean it wasn't hard to do. I took his dick and put it in my mouth and started to suck on him and run my tongue all over his dick and he got an erection and the more I did it he more I liked it. All those dicks I had seen in the service, and all the dicks I had seen since I got out, and all the dicks I had seen on the those web sites and now I had a real dick in my mouth. I liked it and he let me suck him.

We got naked and laid down, and he sucked my dick for a while, while I handled his dick, still hard, wanting to be handled and I wanted to suck it some more. We sixty nined for a while, sucking each other. Then we did what I had not expected, we decided to kiss. To kiss on the lips. That's what did it, that was good, kissing and handling dick with our hands. I am pretty sure that it was while we were kissing that I told myself that I wanted to experience getting fucked. In the service I fantasized about this officer or that officer fucking me, but obviously you can't do that, but now, that night I told him I was willing to try.

I got on my knees and bent down holding the pillow and he stood behind me and using some body lotion from the bathroom he managed to get it going. It wasn't just quite like getting a prostrate exam, the doctor's fingers are too thin, this was a got dick in your ass. More and more it went it, I could feel the pain and the pleasure, like sweet and sour sauce (I actually thought that is where the Chinese got the idea while he was shoving more than fucking it in). When he got all the way in, balls to the wall, he started to fuck and I started to rock. This was good, better than good, this was great.

We talked while he fucked, he told me he had fucked a couple of other guys when he was younger, this was his first hook up on a blind date, but not his first experience. He was deep in the closet because of his job, he told me the name he gave me was not his real name, I asked him for his real name, he only gave me his first name. We shut up and he fucked until he came and the best part came when he withdrew. I could still feel him in me, but he was out. I craved the sensation, I lay on my side and still squeezing my butt cheeks together imagining his dick in me. I didn't want to let the sensation go.

I had found a way to get my activities going. I learned slowly how to answer and how to meet. I started out being the novice at this, but soon learned the key words and expressions. I found a guy in Omaha, also a deep closet guy, I was in security so I understood deep closet secrets, and we became fuck buddies while I was in town.

I don't think you go gay, I am not out of the closet, my job won't allow it. I know how to keep a secret, to be careful, to keep my wits about me. But I am gay, I have always been gay. I just wish I had been a bit more gay when I was younger and not wait until I had gray hair before taking a dick. I keep thinking of all that dick I could have had and I wasted my time not going after it. I tried women, but never met one I could live with. I don't know that I could live with a man, but I can sure get some action going, and I can go both top or bottom, what ever is called for. No clubs, no public places, that is what the internet is for. Two guys coming together out of the cold.