not one to be vindictive but as a result of a few men hurting me I learnt to pay some back and wish I had been more of a bitch to all of them who hurt me.

one professional I sent a whole porn making group after him, a teacher I set loose a group of sporting bitchy models on to him who can show him how tough and bullying a fit woman can be, one american guy I signed him up to heaps of shit on the net back in the early point of webbing because he sent these bitches at me so I did it back. I have done awful things to guys and women who have abused me. I don't regret it if anything I wish I had seen it first hand watching them being abused or suffering as it would helped heal me quicker. never underestimate how that can ease ones pains in love. with the american guy it took a long time to get over him to the point I just felt nothing, couldn't feel love for a man if I tried after what that bastard did.

I am trying to learn to be more revengeful as I never was and should have been- everyone says it their human side to do this or that and yet doctors and teachers in ethics and law were saying "you can't do that it will look vexatious"

so what its my human side showing, when I am a bitch, its my human side too.

don't force me to be anymore human because I won't care who I am a complete bitch to.