I am going on a cruise and I don't know what the fuck to wear. I only have about 3 rooms literally full of hills of clothing I have never worn and never likely to wear. the clothing I have wasted money on to feel good about me is all in vain and to be honest i considered opening up a small shop and selling it with some minor changes to the designs.

I have a few beach dresses and rarely go to the fucking beach. even all the kids who got to go to beach parties never asked me to go away, and then when my sister and her boyfriend did on their yacht I didn't go and sat at home alone with my parents like a loser. I am only going to talk to my parents and be a complete bitch to all I can be a bitch to unless I get a good mood and choose to be nice for a while - god its a bother to be nice after all these years of insults, let downs and I have been the one putting in all the effort to be nice to others, keep up their positivity and the c**ts have worn me out. like every time I said positive motivational things to joyce or russell or rose and I just got handed insults in return. why was I ever so nice to so many assholes? that is the true sign of a loser idiot!

I don't even feel comfortable wearing dresses and I admit I feel comfortable being a blokey chick, because being feminine is stupid.

like all the guys do is just jerk you around anyway. Like the trainer JERK at the gym, or the dickhead gyno who jerked me around and all the other jerks its like that song,


"Lovesong"

Its one thing to ask why we break up
Have you ever
Wondered why it is we fall in love
Can you tell me
Do you know what it is you're looking for
What do we need
Can you tell me why I care
How is it that we hear
That voice that says i want you there

Thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just read and made another stupid love song
Thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just read and made another stupid love song

In a single moment you might be perfect
And sit
In a window of my life
But how much how much more will I get to see?
What would i strive to hide
Now there will be no compromise
So take it in your stride
I will leave you now with a smile

Thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just read and made another stupid love song
And thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just read and made another stupid love song

Look into my eyes
Our's is no love sacrifice
For it has helped us to grow
And im sorry i know just how far i have to go alone

Thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just read and made another stupid love song
And thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just read and made another stupid love song

I've just read and made another love song
Just read and made another love song