out of desperation, and not thinking I could go to my family for help, I took something that did not belong to me and sold it. realize now what caused me to act that way and am seriously working on it. was confronted about it and denied it (which is a lie I will take to my grave). The item is replaceable and this was the first time I have ever done something like this and will never, ever do it again. I cannot come clean with them but just need to get it off my chest. Realized that people have to like me for me - not for the things I may give them. Pleasing others got me into this hole and now I know I take care of me first - then if there is anything left and I want to, I will give to others. Also, it is ok to ask what's in it for me. Doing for others does not mean they will do for me and it's ok for me to find out where they stand before I do anything hoping to get something back.