never had sex with member of my sex. thought about it once or twice though. for the past three years. a college student who is close to our family has been driving me crazy.i am 18 years older then him- i could be his father. he is close to my wife as well. he brushes up against me. touches me in sensual maners. cuffs my but quickly- but not when were playing foot ball, and uusally when no one is around. once he did kiss the back of my neck.. just two weeks ago- i sat in a chair he leaned in to say something- and lightly rubed his knee against my crotch.-- i can't take it any more.. i actually think i want him-- no i know i want him. am i being seduced or just letting my imagination run wild?