I used to find random guys online and have them come over for breast play. All I ever wanted was someone to suck on my nipples. I had a few 'regulars', one in particular who was so good, the best tit-manipulator ever. It's been years since all that happened but I still get off to those memories. Usually he'd suckle me while I was on my back or side but to get me off, I'd be on top of him with my tits hanging in his face, and he'd pull and nibble on my nipples until I came. Now, whenever I get into this position with my current partner, I feel ashamed, because those memories come back. I feel dirty, like I'm hiding something, and I'm not sure why. I was single, it was consensual. So why do I feel like this? At times I feel my past poisons my current sexual relationship. I can't get off like this anymore - it reminds me too much of that other guy (and I didn't feel ANYTHING at all for him, not at all, it was purely about suckling) and I feel shame. Shame, shame, shame.