.my first sexual incounter with a male when i was a certain age shell we say, it was during the xmas holidays in the late 70s , in a tent on the back lawn at my grandparents house.. there was a party in the barn behind the house it must have been about 2am when the flap on the tent opened an some one came in .wo ever it was he had been drinking cause the smell of alcohol was strong,. he stumbled about in the darkness an then lay down on the floor in the tent, about a ft away from where i was sleeping ,my heart was pounding so hard,i didnt know who it was ,after about 8 minutes of almost silince , he coughed then fumbled about in the darkness , then i heard the sound of a zip being opened , i lay there frozen to the spot, waiting, wondering what was going on in the darkness, it was then that i felt a movement behind me, as if the covers i was under had been pulled ..i waited , then it happened again the covers moved, then i felt a hand touch my hip .i lay dead still, not moving, then i felt it again the hand moving, searching in the darkness,then i heard a muffled grunt, an he moved closer toward me ,cause i could feel the heat of his breath on the back of my neck, he continued to fumble in the dark , then i felt his hand touch my bare leg , for a moment he hesitated ,,then he started again to feel around ..my heart was pounding so hard i thought i might have a heart attack, his hand , fingers felt like sandpaper on my skin, as he rubbed it up an down my leg ..as he got bolder his hand went higher & higher, till he was trying to push his finger up under the leg of my knickers, for a moment, he stopped what he was doing ,shuffled about again an this time he moved up even closer behind me , so close that i could feel his body rubbing behind me , then his hand came back around my waist, an started to fumble with my knickers again ...this time he went for the waist band , when he located it he slowly pulled my knickers down as far as he could ,. an once again,his fingers started searching again ..this time, his fingers ended up between my legs ,..he probbed for a few moments , then stopped, pulled his hand out an then i heard him grunt an made what sounded like a spitting sound,then his hand was back fumbling with my undies ,, this time his hand was as wet as ,.his fingers were as wet as ,.an he then started again with the probbing around betweenv my legs .,by this time i was as horny as he was ..an as he probbed i lifted my leg to give him more space to feel around ,.when he knew i was responding to his effort .it was all on, he pulled my knickers down around my ankles,an with that for the first time in my life i felt a mans cock touch my body , it was the head i felt the head probbing my butt crack, he stopped what he was doing then again he spat onto his hand for lube , an rubbed it all over his cock ,cause next time i felt it, it was as wet as , an as hard as a rock,i felt the thick cock head, drifting up an down bewteen my thighs , an probbing about in between my butt cheeks, but couldnt find his way in ....with that , i took hold of his cock , an put the head in line with my womanness, an held the head there in the opening, tight in my hand so he couldnt thrust , i wanted it at my speed, with that, i could feel a dull acking feeling as the head slowly spread the entrance to my cherry,the girth was too much ...the head felt too thick ..but i held it there not letting up on the preasure, i slowly moved backward toward him ...with that cock head moving bit by bit even deeper into me .till i had to stop ...cause the pain was too much .i stopped , but didnt let his cock go ,. i held it in place , an then again i sunk back slowly onto that oversized head, all the while thinking to myself, its now or never ..so with that , i grit my teeth an sunk even deeper toward him ,,, the pain ripped thought my body, an my legs seemed to freeze up an sort of went stiff, the pain was emmence, with that, i let his cock go .he must of thought that it was his cue to thrust, cause before i knew it , he was fully up in me ,,,, he let out a hell of a groan,.an started kissing the back of my neck.i could feel him fully up in me , he just lay there ,,,, he didnt make any more thrusts , he just lay there ,,,,, after about a minute or 2, i moved backward toward him , but then he withdraw his cock , i heard him fumbling about behind me. i then heard the zip of his pants again .....then he muttered something ,,,,,,then proceeded to get up ..once he was standing he ajusted himself, then left the tent, an walked out into the darkness , there i was lying there, with my knickers around my ankles, my womanness still gaping open from the oversized penis that had forced its way into me, i had just been fucked, by a man ..what man ,.... who was he, ..an to this day , i dont know who he was ,.this was new years eve, in the late 70s, memories huh .......