What I Fantasize About And What I Had Done

I started masterbating when I got my first xxx magazine and saw her open c**t for the first time and when I got close to orgasm I would stop because I was feeling strange and never had an orgasm yet and was scared of what would happen if I kept going and that's what I was doing for a long time and then I saw my first porn movie and it shocked me to see what came out of a cock that was white and creamy and when he was putting it in her c**t all the way in was something i always remember when I got masterbating and she was wearing pattern cable knee highs in the missionary position for the two guys that are fucking her and that's when I was going to masterbate and keep going to the end and see what happens and I was getting that strange feeling that something was going to happen to me and started having my first orgasm as long stream of white stuff coming out and the throbbing pulse was like a roller-coaster ride with the most horny feeling as I orgasm and after many times masterbating I saw a pair of navy blue cable pattern knee highs that I saw her wearing in the store and when I got got them on I had a shiver up my back and got super hard and more horny than ever before and I had an orgasm within a minute and was something I was going to keep doing in secret for the next 20years and that's what I loved doing every day or night and most weekends two or three times a day then I fantasize about being a crossdresser and going in public and that's what I was doing when I was married secretly for the next 20years and I was wearing girls outfits with knee highs and show everyone what I like doing in public that was more sexy than anything anyone would do with me wearing nice frilly ankle socks with pattern nylons and leggings up to the knees with nice black suede girl shoes with my toes painted and after many years of going everywhere being a crossdresser I had fantasize about being a crossdresser for gay sex with homosexuals that were very horny for having anal sex with me and that I want them to cum in me was something they want to give me for sure and I want to have two guys to have anal with me without any condoms wearing my navy blue cable pattern nylon knee highs in my nice shoes and one would have a really nice long uncut cock for me first with the other one holding my legs up and opened to have him start fucking my ass and after the first twenty strokes I will say take my shoes off and fuck me to the end and grind it up in nice and hard all the way in as I look at my painted toenails until he cumed and that's when they would switch positions and looking more at my nice legs and feet the guy would have a huge monster thick cock and just before he was going to go in my ass would say that I am going to like how it's going to feel when it goes in and it wasn't long before I made it come true at a gay couples house and one was fairly long as it hit the end of my hole making it deeper and then having the big one going in made me seeing stars and almost fainted in the first few seconds and pulled out and started to back in again for a few more times and I will never forget how much it hurt and permanently stretched open my hole and now after many years I still have a hole looking like a big c**t for ever and after many years I want to get some nice girls socks and paint my toes one more time to get two or three strangers with a very long cock and one with a huge cock that I will feel when I did the first time and this time I want them to take turns nice and hard.