My Peak Of Being Gay

I spent the 80s in my teens and early 20s…as confessed before I was in the closet. I used to wear lingerie and dress girlie when I had sex with men, usually much older. It wasn’t as readily available as it is now but I would have probably transitioned. Sadly I ended up loosing my feminine and boy band good looks to aging and testosterone. By 30 I didn’t feel sexy anymore and dress up didn’t have the same appeal in my opinion and was relegated to being a closeted gay man for the rest of my life. Even if I came out now what’s the point. I still occasionally hook up but in hindsight I would have been happier being who I was.