Divirginize

I don't know if I'm a Lesbian or a Female Bisexual. I had a short-term girlfriend before but when we fuck we never went beyond rubbing each others pussy, No penetration.

Now that I'm older and I masturbate while watching porn (Straight and Gay) I wish I could experience penetration either with fingers or a dick. I'm just not sure if it's because I just want to be divirginize that's why I want a dick.

I sometimes say, devirginize yourself, but what if I make a mistake and end up getting hurt, So I don’t do it

When I’m imagining myself, while masturbating, having sex with a woman, I want only me fucking her, but if it’s with a man, I want only him fucking me

So what am I, a Lesbian or a Female Bisexual?

Can I divirginize myself without getting hurt?