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ive had a rash/pimple looking growth on the right portion of my penis shaft, and my limpfnodes on my inner right thigh are swollen and hurt. My lower back also hurts, so i went to the doctor and she told me i have herpes. Ive only had sex with one person, and i was going to marry her but now im not, and i am deeply depressed. I feel like she ruined my life, and i dont see how i could ever love her. I think i hate her for giving me this uncureable disease and i feel like i will never be a 'normal' person for the rest of my life. I wish i had never met this woman, i wish i had- had sex with other people also. I will never have sex with anyone because i know how it feels for someone to give a person herpes and i would never deeply emotionally hurt someone it this way. Im a 23 year old man, and i have never cried like i have cried in the past two days in my whole life. My exfiance says she'll kill herself if i leave her. I dont want her to do that, but i dont think the threat of suicide will stop me for leaving, and also hating her for what she has done to me. We have been together for almost 2 years and she has never had an outbreak, so i suspect shes been having sex with someone behind my back.

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Before you do something rash like breaking it off with your fiance', wait till you calm down and can think clearly. Then talk to her, and tell her what you've written here. Tell her you want the truth from her, then listen to what she has to say, but listen to your gut, too. If you think she's lying, then drop her; but if she tells you what you percieve to be the truth, give it another try. If need be, go to counseling with her if you decide to stay with her, because this obviously has caused you great anxiety and anger. And remember, just because you have herpes now, it's not the end of the world - you just have to be honest with your partners and abstain during outbreaks (something which your fiance' apparently hadn't done with you).

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I talked with a doctor, she told me 'my honest professional opinion is; you have herpes. By the look, and symptoms you have, it can not be anything other then herpes" I havent taken a blood test yet because it is too early to show up. I have to wait until it goes away and my body produces anti-bodies for the test to come back positive. I can not express how emotionally sick i am. I have to hide at work because i cannot stop crying, and i feel like my life as a normal healthy person is gone, and i completely blame her for stealing my health from me. Everytime i think of her i can not stop the flow of tears because her face reminds me that what she has done to me is real, and i will never be the same again. I dont know if i can forgive her, and one of the bad parts about it is she wasn't even a great lover. And now i will never know how it would feel to be with someone else because i will not contribute to the spread of this disease.

I think back, a few weeks/months ago she was complaining about sex 'hurting' and it felt 'wierd'. She told me it was some kind of UTI, or yeast infection. Im almost positive that is the day i contracted this from her. God, i hate myself for letting this happen. I shouldve left a long time ago. But i thought that the bickering, and bad things between her and i would get better and we would live as a happy family. I wanted to have kids with her, but i dont see how i could ever have kids with someone that i resent so much.

So many thoughts are running threw my mind right now. The doctor told me that she may have had it for a long time and just didnt know. But i dont know, maybe she cheated on me. Thats my biggest fear, because it would mean that im getting punished for her being a cheater. My life would be ruined because she went outside of our relationship with some guy and brought back this horrible thing to me. God, this is fucking tearing me apart, i just wish i could stop crying, stop hurting, stop thinking about it. I wish i could just go back in time and never meet her, i wish i was still a virgin, i wish i never gave her my virginity, i wish ...

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The stats say that 1 in 4, that's 25 percent of the population, has herpes so your surely not alone and although it really sucks, it's really not the end of your world. The BIG question is did she know she had it or not, and I don't know how you will ever get to that truth unless she says she knew and if that is the case; first dump her and second take the bitch to court and sue her for a whole lot of money which she may or may not have but if you prevail and get a judgment against her you might just feel a little justice was served. I would do some case law hunting now and then seek out the right attorney.

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by Anonymous

I know how you feel. My current boyfriend gave me herpes. He says he didn't know that he had it. He very rarely has outbreaks, and before he always thought it was something else (won't go to the doctor!). I've forgiven him. I don't think that he cheated on me. Some people never have get outbreaks, but are still contagious. Perhaps your girlfriend is one of those people. Don't jump to conclusions.

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