I was 35 when i first went down on a lad of 18, who`d caught me mucking about with a dildo in my mouth that some joker had left in the kite boarding club where it was my turn to lock up.It was my own fault as i thought the door was locked and id just got carried away pushing it in my mouth and rubbing the front of my zip.The lad looked at me and unzipped his cock and i did not hesitate to go down on him until he finally came in my mouth.There were no excuses i could have made to him as the dildo in my mouth told him what i was thinking of at the time .Jason and i got on well but it took a while for him to except that i really loved my wife and family and i could not tell him that much as id loved him in my mouth i still felt disgusted with myself for doing it.That same night id really fucked my wife hard maybe trying to prove to myself i was really straight but several years later i was near enough yanking a young mans shorts down who had seen the way i stared down at what really was rather a large cock hanging down in the showers.He made my jaws ache but it was worth it.