this is my second confession on this topic. I love the homework she sets so far. aha. I see a therapist and she suggested to me I try masturbation and looking at women's bodies to start to like my body more. I told her I have never felt good about touching my breasts and feeling wet and smelly so she told me that it might help. I also told her that as a obese woman its hard to find lingerie and to feel good about the fat as so much fat shaming I have gotten. So she told me to google up some obese women in porn and to see how I might like feeling like that woman and touching myself. So I have given it a go and it feels ok. It reminds me of the past I didn't want to remember. I notice that it is a turn on and yet a guilt. what should I say next to her. yes I had orgasm, finally. I am straight and worried about potentially turning lesbian but at this point who cares? anyone relate?