Well I am a open minded engineer. I do like to watch porn especially without jerking off I know it actually affects performance in workplace. Because of porn I found my first love actually...I look ugly but I am a skilled and fit engineer.
I ws watching porn and I fall in love with the porn actress Kelsi Monroe I saw every video of her and even her every interview. I know I love her but I can't talk or chat with her. I tried to mail her but she never replied. I know how people suffer and turn to porn I know how people try to survive. I don't mind what her profession is, i just want a partner like her even she can continue her career. I think it's better than her to stay home and do nothing I just want to send her a message that I love her I watched her naked many times and that didn't change anything for me to question about her character. But I recently watched her video with jmac and I really got jealous of him I know I don't mind if she shoots with someone else but the way he had sex with her was really erotic and I can do that to I can penetrate my big d into her stomach and I can make her stomach move just like something is pointing out from inside her belly I just don't know what to do I used to dream of dating and loving her but that video really changed everything in me I love her so much I don't want to be a jealous boyfriend of her. I wish could propose her for marriage and I wish I could take jmac with us to make habit of not getting jealous if someone performs with her