discovering my total gay submissive side....

I'm a very str8 acting closeted married man that has had a few gay sexual exploits over the years,
A few years ago I was going through a really rough time with my wife of many years, our sex life has never been great but just really was failing me, I had turned to gay sex .
I was somewhat new to most things, I had tried being a top and a bottom but still had not found my place, I had until this day only played safe.this day was very different !
I found myself with the house to myself for the day as my wife was across town.
I posted an ad on CL. And watched as the responses came in, being able to host was the key!
Messaging back and forth with a young 34 yo man and exchanging nude pics,wow, very hot just chatting and knowing I was showing my body to another man excited me a lot!!!
We set a time and I got a shower and cleaned myself TOTALY
When he ran the bell I opened the door to see he in shorts and a t-shirt, very nice body!!

He stepped in to the foyer and we exchanged a few pleasant words before I backed into our living room and dropped to my knees, he opened his shorts and out came a nice hard cock, this was pretty new to me but I really enjoyed it,
Just the feel of a cock on a otherwise str8 man's mouth is amazing!
After just a short time he ask the words that shocked me ( DO YOU FUCK ),,,, I am a much older man at this time than him. In pretty good shape and I think I have a great ass, but I'm 20 years his senior.
I don't know why I said yes ,but the words just came out before I even stopped to think!
We walked to my den and he had me strip. He did also, and my juices were flowing,I ask him if he had protection and he got out a condom ....
He walked up to me and turned me to my pool table, easing around behind me,and taking my hard nipples between his thumb and fingers, that's like my go buttons, my mind was spinning when he spread my cheeks and touched my puckered hole for the first time, then dropping to his knees and letting his tongue find its way!
In no time I looked down to see a stream of clear pre-cum dripping to the carpet, OMG I WAS SO TURNED ON,THEN
I FELT THE COCK HEAD AND THE ENTRANCE!!!!
He slowly entered me as he whispered in my ear, tell me what a nice pussy I had, I never though of my ass in that way..
I about came... he masterfully fucked me!
I couldn't hold on ,my cock just started erupting ,I grabbed it to keep from coming on my pool table,
He was pounding away at my new pussy,
Wave after wave and rope after rope, I was shaking from head to toe!!!
But he had not cum yet, I felt a same and humiliated that I came before him and I had just let another man fuck me
Like a women!!!
I ask him if I could go wash the cum off my hand and he said NO!!!!
I was not through, he told me to lube his clock and my hole with my cum, all of a sudden I realized he didn't ever put his condom on ,,,
He ordered me to get on all fours, this was the real deal here and my heart was pounding, it was time to be used for another man total pleasures, giving my new pussy to him for what he wanted ,to breed me!!!!
He didn't every put a condom on and we both knew it!! He really enjoyed himself ,being in control and the power of making mr his bitch and seeding me, I could tell that meant more to him than getting a nut...
It changed me as he took what he wanted from me,
After he left I went into the bathroom and watched his cum flow from me in the mirror, thank god I did catch anything from the unprotected sec, I don't recommend doing that at all,
But from then on I felt very submissive when having sex, even with my wife...
We did meet up many more times and I explored even kinkier things at his hands. We no longer meet but I do still JO
Standing at that same mirror reliving in my mind the events of that day😀