Two days before my wedding I had sex with the last boyfriend I had before meeting my husband. I know it was a terrible thing to do but I was very confused at the time and had a lot of doubts if I really wanted to go through with the wedding. Now that I look back I can say that I was really trying to sabotage my life, that was because of a lot of emotional problems but thats just another story.

My ex came to my house just to say hi, after breaking up we had just remained friends but of course I wasnt going to tell my fiancee my ex was at my house. Even worse my mother was not at the house either so we were completely alone.

I remember as we started talking I started telling him about my doubts and insecurities and him being a man after all didnt lose the opportunity to wanting to confirm my doubts.

We kissed on the sofa and he just went straight to getting on top of me and pulling my panties from under my dress. He just pulled his pants down too and he went straight to fuck me right there over the sofa. There wasnt a lot of foreplay involved, we used to be a couple so he knew how to take me quickly if he wanted to.


As you can imagine, sex wasnt romantic at all. It was very sexual and just very straightforward if you can call it that. He started getting increasingly exited and started penetrating me harder and faster. He probably fucked me for 10 minutes straight, the sex was mainly for him but I was very all right with that, for me it was more of an emotional escape.

He came very hard inside of me, Im not going to lie and Im going to admit that I liked it. I moaned, I kissed him and I put my feet around him while he was fucking me, this wasnt a forced situation at all.

Strange enough as soon as he finished I understood that this wasnt what I wanted for the rest of my life, just sex, just a man fucking me and me trying to figure out later what my place was in his life. I actually had a man who wanted to make me his wife and it was clear enough at that moment, that was what I wanted


My ex thought that this was going to continue as an ongoing affair but I knew that was the last time I was going to have sex with him. I didnt want to explain anything to him at the momento so we said good bye in good terms and I told him I was going to call him

The wedding happened 2 days later just as planned. I admit for many moments during the day I felt like shit but I also knew that was the last time I was going to be unfaithful to my now husband. Also to be honest we weren't actually married at the time I had sex with my ex so I kept saying it wasnt that bad

I found out I was pregnant one month after the wedding, and no I never bothered to do any test to know who the father was. When I see my son I see my husband, he looks like him, so thats all I need to know. I told this story here because nobody really knows about this.