I am a 63 yr old quiet divorced white male who finally came to terms with his sexuality and feelings a month ago.It happened unexpectedly but I suppose fate intervened.I have spent an adult life dating women in the straight world and one marriage that did not work out.For 6 months in 1995 as a 39 yr old I had a secret affair with a gay man 10 yrs older than me.Even though the sex passion and intimacy were satisfying and intense I broke it off with him as I was scared of living a gay life.He was upset but let me go.I often have thought of him since and masturbated imaging we were together and trying to control the love feeling I felt for him which would be rekindled when i daydreamed about him.

I had forgotten he lived in the west end and I had moved so he did not have my number.So to my surprise one day last month when i saw him smoking a cigarette on a park bench in a west end park.He had aged quite a bit and now had thinning white hair was still tall and a bit hunched over.I nervously sat down near him and he looked over and smiled.He took a very deep suck on the filter of his cigarette just like I remembered about his smoking,a deep pull in which his mouth engulfed half the cigarette.I found it sensual then and it started having the same effect on me.My cock stiffened in my pants as i recalled the many times he sucked my cock and swallowed my cum greedily.It always gave me the desire to suck his big cock back with need and insistence until i had his load of cum in my mouth.I could feel myself get hornier than I felt in years.Inside myself I felt lust and this growing sense I was still in love with him no matter how old and decrepit he had become.I watched him smoke slowly and let the feelings take me over.This time I realized at 63 I was now ready for this if he still wanted me.No one was around and I suppose he sensed my willingness.He moved close and gave me a slow smoky kiss.I did not care who was around and kissed him back with a sense of urgency and mounting passion.We necked for a long time.I knew we were back in that special place the one I should never have left.

Al took my hand and said let's go back to my place,it is the same small basement apartment I lived in back then.We got back to his place with my heart pounding.He lit up one cigarette for me and passed it to me.As i took a deep drag I could taste his wet saliva on the filter and it made me suck more greedily on it.He lit a cigarette then made us 2 rum and cokes.The rest felt like slow motion but I recall being in his bed as his white haired head bobbed on my stiff cock until i cried out and unloaded down his throat.I then wrapped my mouth eagerly around his 7 inch cut cock and sucked it passionately until I had my reward which I also swallowed.After we lay kissing and smoking.Later that night as I was falling asleep i felt my asshole being lubed up as Al turned me over,guided my ass into the air and took me from behind like he used to do so well.I was surprised a 73 yr old man could be so hard and fuck me vigorously for almost 10 minutes before cumming inside me.We lay again side by side and told each other that we are so in love with each other.Needless to say that old goat has bred me pretty well the last few weeks.I will never let go of him again.