Straight Male / 21
I've been with my girlfriend for about a year now, and in this time we've somewhat deeply discussed our sexual pasts with one another. Personally I haven't explored sex all that much, having only four one night stands in college and a couple girlfriends in high school who I had foreplay with. My girlfriend on the other hand has had sexual inter course with nearly 20 different guys, and can't count the number of blowjobs she's given. Some of those events include a three-way, multiple anal experiences, exhibitionism in the woods or in a back room at work, etc.
Our sex life is nothing to scoff at, we both love sex and have it at the least once a day, often twice. She usually has double digit orgasms and shes been able to get me to cum 3 times in an hour.
We've ventured into making things a little more kinky with name calling (daddy, my little whore, cumslut, etc.), foods and whipped cream, a vibrator, and handcuffs, but for some reason it's never enough for me. She's told me the things she's done in the past and now refuses to even go near those because she's "not like that anymore" even though some of these occured a couple months before we started dating.
I get into the topic of going outside, having a threesome, even doing anal, and she starts a fight, saying how she should be enough for me and asking why I can't just be happy with how it is. Hoe can I be knowing she's done these things before and I haven't/might not get the chance to depending hoe long this relationship lasts?
I've asked myself a number of times if I should be with her since I still want to explore. I've looked for dates when we go long distance, thought about cheating, thought about all the things I could do... But I can still look at her and say I'm happy where I'm at.
I feel conflicted, in one way, feeling cheated that she had those experiences and is now preventing me from having them, but also knowing that I won't force her into any of them because she has valid reason in that she may have decided they're a thing of her past and she doesn't want that anymore.
Our sex life is nothing to scoff at, we both love sex and have it at the least once a day, often twice. She usually has double digit orgasms and shes been able to get me to cum 3 times in an hour.
We've ventured into making things a little more kinky with name calling (daddy, my little whore, cumslut, etc.), foods and whipped cream, a vibrator, and handcuffs, but for some reason it's never enough for me. She's told me the things she's done in the past and now refuses to even go near those because she's "not like that anymore" even though some of these occured a couple months before we started dating.
I get into the topic of going outside, having a threesome, even doing anal, and she starts a fight, saying how she should be enough for me and asking why I can't just be happy with how it is. Hoe can I be knowing she's done these things before and I haven't/might not get the chance to depending hoe long this relationship lasts?
I've asked myself a number of times if I should be with her since I still want to explore. I've looked for dates when we go long distance, thought about cheating, thought about all the things I could do... But I can still look at her and say I'm happy where I'm at.
I feel conflicted, in one way, feeling cheated that she had those experiences and is now preventing me from having them, but also knowing that I won't force her into any of them because she has valid reason in that she may have decided they're a thing of her past and she doesn't want that anymore.
