Something about my life I thought very few people knew about my ex and me I never would have shared nor agreed to share with anyone outside of our circle of friends that played a part. Who remembers Polaroid instant cameras? While I was married to the ex he took alot of sexual pictures. When we separated and through the divorce process I kept asking what happened to those photos and wanted them destroyed. He swore he disposed of them. That was a lie. A few years ago when my mom was in last stages of cancer she gave me a package telling me I had to wait until she passed to look inside the package. I begged her to tell me what was in the package. She told me it was a surprise and I should wait as she instructed. I was busy taking care of her through her illness and the final arrangements for her memorial. I had to clear out her belongings and distribute as necessary and to her wishes. Several months later I finally ran across that package and sat down to look at the contents. There they were, dozens of polaroids of me having sex with various dogs. Mom never said a word about having that knowledge about me. I sometimes wonder what her thoughts were. I wonder how that conversation started with my ex and my mom. I wonder if he told her how much I loved that part of my life, did he tell her how much he enjoyed watching me be submissive like a bitch in heat.