My confession. Only a very select few know about it and I plan on keeping it that way. First I want to say that this sight is one of my husbands favorites and if he reads this and figures out it is me, he will now know but most likely I will just tell him it's not me, must be someone else.

We have been married for maybe 10 years before my husband started with the fantasy of me with another man while we had fun in the bed. We would role play and talk about and perform what I would do while he watched me with another man. After the sex it was always back to two vanilla type people claiming they would never do that in real life. The thing is, he swore he had absolutely no interest in sharing me with any other person, I on the other hand eventually got it sunk in my mind that I would want to be shared with another. Sometimes it would take over my mind and I would find a good spot to masturbate myself to reducing the thought. Didn't work.

In the past 3 1/2 to 4 years I have had five different lovers. At first I felt guilt but then convinced myself that since my husband always brought it up, he must want me to have lovers too. I knew that wasn't true but looked for the excuse that worked for me. To this day I have not said a word to him. When we have sex he still brings it up and we play like he is the other guy. I'm sue he suspects nothing and I hope it stays that way.

So, my dear, if you read this, it isn't me and it isn't you.