Straight Male / 50
I am 60 now and all this happened 44 years ago, I was an only child but it didn't matter, considering what happened then it was maybe just as well.
We were happy family with really nothing to worry about, typical family that took holidays together and everything, I was about to leave school and go to college, thats was until the 8th of march 1979.
I was only 16 at the time but I remember that day with particular clarity, the phone rang, I answered it, it was my Dads works and they asked to speak to my Mother, my Dad was an electrical engineer at the Golborne colliery, in Lancashire, there had been an accident, it was bad, my Dad had been killed instantly by a methane explosion.
I remember the look of disbelieve on my Mothers face as she beckoned me towards her and just hugged me crying before she told me what happened, a short time after someone from the pit knocked on the door to speak to Mother.
The funeral was planned and even the Mayor of Wigan launched an appeal for money, for the people and family's affected was raised, as I remember it was quite a lot but we didn't really need it at the time.
The funeral over with I thought we would settle down to some kind of normality but we didn't, my Mother would spend a lot of time crying and worrying but what was more worrying, she had turned to drinking and more often than not she would smell of drink most of the day and this was not her, I am not ashamed to say at 35, she was an extremely attractive woman and could pass easily for someone at least 10 years younger, she kept herself in shape too and had a lovely figure, but after that happened she just went downhill with vodka and I had to resort to the local chip shop most of the time.
At night lying in bed I used to here her crying, she missed my Dad so much but there was nothing I could do to take that hurt away except to be there for her and it began to affect me too, I would go out drinking with my friends because it would hurt me so much to see my Mother like that.
My friends were no help either, they got used to seeing her drunk and it sort of became the norm, one day I decided to stay in, there was a film I wanted to watch and I got one of my friends to me some cans of lager, that night was to change my life totally.
I had a shower, put a tea shirt on and a pair of football shorts on with nothing underneath, I started watching the film and enjoying the lager but I fell asleep on the settee, I never heard my Mother come down the stairs or into the living room but was woke up in the most sensual way and the biggest shock of my life! she had her hand down my shorts feeling my my penis and balls! and I had gotten an erection!
I jumped up in total shock pulling my shorts back up, I didn't know what to say or think at the time, it seemed a total mind block! I went upstairs to my room and went to bed, I heard my Mother come up the stairs and she knocked on my door, I didn't answer so she knocked again calling me by name and asked to come in so she could talk to me, Ok come in Mom I said, she cried and apologized for what she had done and explained all she could see was my Dad laying there, I didn't say a word except for Ok and she left, apart from the shock of finding my own Mother holding my penis and balls, there was no harm done and it actually felt good! and I couldn't help but go to the bathroom and masturbate into the sink.
The following morning I knew Mother had not got much sleep cause I didn't either! I had been thinking about what had happened all night and it actually turned me on enormously! I mean totally illegal but it had actually kept me hard most of the night! almost to the point where I thought I would have to stand on my hands to pee!
I decided to be honest with her about it if she asked, I knew she would anyway.
I went downstairs, got myself some cornflakes and a cup of tea, around ten minutes later my Mother came downstairs, the first thing she said was she that she was sorry, Biting my tongue a little I said it was ok and I shouldn't just left like that and it actually felt nice but I got a huge shock!
I didn't know quite what to expect to that! all she said was Oh, it felt nice last night did it, I said yes but I wasn't expecting to find her doing that! and with that she was ok, it's out little secret then sweetheart and she came over, kissed me on the cheek and patted my crotch! I didn't really want to admit that my Mother was the first to touch me there! although I suspect she knew already! that I was still a virgin!
I said we should just spend that night in together and talk if she wanted and she ok, it sounds good, should I rent a film for us to watch later then, yes ok but you pick it mom.
That night came and as promised we stayed in, she had not been drinking as much that day, if fact she seemed quite sober, I can't remember what film she got or if she even put it on cause we talked and talked about how much we both missed dad, we talked as adults and drank, about last night she said, I know I shouldn't have done that and I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me, it's really ok and I shouldn't have acted so silly either just running upstairs the way I did, this morning when you said you enjoyed it, did you mean it she asked, I knew I was being railroaded but I was at least honest and said yes.
She admitted to me she did too, also that she wished I has stayed where I was! I wasn't stupid, I knew where this was going but I liked her now the way she was, sober! I said if it were now I wouldn't run upstairs I would just sit there and let her! Hold on she said, I'll be back in moment, she went upstairs and when she came back she was in the most lovely nightgown, white and silk, thats better she said and sat down beside me, isn't this nice she said, just the two of us, after a couple of minutes we both talked at the same time! you go first I said, Can I do that again then if you liked it? in these jeans I said! you can try! that was all it took, she reached over and loosened my belt, undid the button and pulled down the zip, her hand went into my underwear right down into my crotch, I was squirming around a bit and she said if it was uncomfortable just take them off!
I did just that, naked from the waist down! at first it felt like it did last night, weird but then it felt nice, really nice, she held my balls with one hand and played with my penis with the other, I got a huge erection and it was not long before I wanted to come, my mother didn't care she kept on until I did! all over myself! my first orgasm with a girl!!!!
After that she still played with me and kept me hard, she took my hand and put it inside her night gown, no bra as I touched and played with her breasts, I couldn't help myself, my hand went down to her thigh, I touched and stroked it working my way towards her vagina, she never stopped me, she helped by opening her legs slightly, she was just as apprehensive as me but it was too late, she wasn't wearing any knickers either, I touched my first naked vagina! all wet and hairy, it was nice rubbing it, I felt her hand touch mine and push my finger inside her, I felt her vagina grip onto my finger and convulse, the smell was like, a warm fishy pissy smell, the smell of sex, eventually she got up, over the top of me, she directed my penis into her very wet and warm vagina, she took my cherry ans she knew it!
She started gently riding me and got a little quicker, I was thrusting up inside her too, the feelings was indescribable! I knew she was coming, I could feel it running between my legs and there was a lot of it, I couldn't take anymore and let my load go, much better than any wank!
We went to bed after that, and made love for most of the night! the difference in her was almost immediate, she took better care of herself, she dressed nice and she stopped drinking except for social, I had replaced what was missing in her life, I watched her change back into that beautiful woman again from the brink of alcoholism.
My mother died last year, I don't regret anything anything I did with her, we made love up to the day she died of a heart attack, at least I gave one person in this life their self respect back so they could live happy again.
We were happy family with really nothing to worry about, typical family that took holidays together and everything, I was about to leave school and go to college, thats was until the 8th of march 1979.
I was only 16 at the time but I remember that day with particular clarity, the phone rang, I answered it, it was my Dads works and they asked to speak to my Mother, my Dad was an electrical engineer at the Golborne colliery, in Lancashire, there had been an accident, it was bad, my Dad had been killed instantly by a methane explosion.
I remember the look of disbelieve on my Mothers face as she beckoned me towards her and just hugged me crying before she told me what happened, a short time after someone from the pit knocked on the door to speak to Mother.
The funeral was planned and even the Mayor of Wigan launched an appeal for money, for the people and family's affected was raised, as I remember it was quite a lot but we didn't really need it at the time.
The funeral over with I thought we would settle down to some kind of normality but we didn't, my Mother would spend a lot of time crying and worrying but what was more worrying, she had turned to drinking and more often than not she would smell of drink most of the day and this was not her, I am not ashamed to say at 35, she was an extremely attractive woman and could pass easily for someone at least 10 years younger, she kept herself in shape too and had a lovely figure, but after that happened she just went downhill with vodka and I had to resort to the local chip shop most of the time.
At night lying in bed I used to here her crying, she missed my Dad so much but there was nothing I could do to take that hurt away except to be there for her and it began to affect me too, I would go out drinking with my friends because it would hurt me so much to see my Mother like that.
My friends were no help either, they got used to seeing her drunk and it sort of became the norm, one day I decided to stay in, there was a film I wanted to watch and I got one of my friends to me some cans of lager, that night was to change my life totally.
I had a shower, put a tea shirt on and a pair of football shorts on with nothing underneath, I started watching the film and enjoying the lager but I fell asleep on the settee, I never heard my Mother come down the stairs or into the living room but was woke up in the most sensual way and the biggest shock of my life! she had her hand down my shorts feeling my my penis and balls! and I had gotten an erection!
I jumped up in total shock pulling my shorts back up, I didn't know what to say or think at the time, it seemed a total mind block! I went upstairs to my room and went to bed, I heard my Mother come up the stairs and she knocked on my door, I didn't answer so she knocked again calling me by name and asked to come in so she could talk to me, Ok come in Mom I said, she cried and apologized for what she had done and explained all she could see was my Dad laying there, I didn't say a word except for Ok and she left, apart from the shock of finding my own Mother holding my penis and balls, there was no harm done and it actually felt good! and I couldn't help but go to the bathroom and masturbate into the sink.
The following morning I knew Mother had not got much sleep cause I didn't either! I had been thinking about what had happened all night and it actually turned me on enormously! I mean totally illegal but it had actually kept me hard most of the night! almost to the point where I thought I would have to stand on my hands to pee!
I decided to be honest with her about it if she asked, I knew she would anyway.
I went downstairs, got myself some cornflakes and a cup of tea, around ten minutes later my Mother came downstairs, the first thing she said was she that she was sorry, Biting my tongue a little I said it was ok and I shouldn't just left like that and it actually felt nice but I got a huge shock!
I didn't know quite what to expect to that! all she said was Oh, it felt nice last night did it, I said yes but I wasn't expecting to find her doing that! and with that she was ok, it's out little secret then sweetheart and she came over, kissed me on the cheek and patted my crotch! I didn't really want to admit that my Mother was the first to touch me there! although I suspect she knew already! that I was still a virgin!
I said we should just spend that night in together and talk if she wanted and she ok, it sounds good, should I rent a film for us to watch later then, yes ok but you pick it mom.
That night came and as promised we stayed in, she had not been drinking as much that day, if fact she seemed quite sober, I can't remember what film she got or if she even put it on cause we talked and talked about how much we both missed dad, we talked as adults and drank, about last night she said, I know I shouldn't have done that and I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me, it's really ok and I shouldn't have acted so silly either just running upstairs the way I did, this morning when you said you enjoyed it, did you mean it she asked, I knew I was being railroaded but I was at least honest and said yes.
She admitted to me she did too, also that she wished I has stayed where I was! I wasn't stupid, I knew where this was going but I liked her now the way she was, sober! I said if it were now I wouldn't run upstairs I would just sit there and let her! Hold on she said, I'll be back in moment, she went upstairs and when she came back she was in the most lovely nightgown, white and silk, thats better she said and sat down beside me, isn't this nice she said, just the two of us, after a couple of minutes we both talked at the same time! you go first I said, Can I do that again then if you liked it? in these jeans I said! you can try! that was all it took, she reached over and loosened my belt, undid the button and pulled down the zip, her hand went into my underwear right down into my crotch, I was squirming around a bit and she said if it was uncomfortable just take them off!
I did just that, naked from the waist down! at first it felt like it did last night, weird but then it felt nice, really nice, she held my balls with one hand and played with my penis with the other, I got a huge erection and it was not long before I wanted to come, my mother didn't care she kept on until I did! all over myself! my first orgasm with a girl!!!!
After that she still played with me and kept me hard, she took my hand and put it inside her night gown, no bra as I touched and played with her breasts, I couldn't help myself, my hand went down to her thigh, I touched and stroked it working my way towards her vagina, she never stopped me, she helped by opening her legs slightly, she was just as apprehensive as me but it was too late, she wasn't wearing any knickers either, I touched my first naked vagina! all wet and hairy, it was nice rubbing it, I felt her hand touch mine and push my finger inside her, I felt her vagina grip onto my finger and convulse, the smell was like, a warm fishy pissy smell, the smell of sex, eventually she got up, over the top of me, she directed my penis into her very wet and warm vagina, she took my cherry ans she knew it!
She started gently riding me and got a little quicker, I was thrusting up inside her too, the feelings was indescribable! I knew she was coming, I could feel it running between my legs and there was a lot of it, I couldn't take anymore and let my load go, much better than any wank!
We went to bed after that, and made love for most of the night! the difference in her was almost immediate, she took better care of herself, she dressed nice and she stopped drinking except for social, I had replaced what was missing in her life, I watched her change back into that beautiful woman again from the brink of alcoholism.
My mother died last year, I don't regret anything anything I did with her, we made love up to the day she died of a heart attack, at least I gave one person in this life their self respect back so they could live happy again.
