Absolutely no one knows about this.

In Albufeira, Portugal three years ago I was with my then girlfriend. We'd been there four days when after being out all night, she said on our return to our room, we had no cigarette's left. I knew there was a shop/kiosk open as I'd seen it on our way back, so I said I'd go and get some.

On my way back I was punched to the ground and then dragged into a scrubby area. Only then did I see three large black and mixed race guys looking down at me. I instantly offered what little money I had with me and the cigs. But they weren't interested in money or cigs.

Telling me in broken English I was going to suck their cocks, I told them to fuckoff. When my head stopped spinning, I saw three large thick cocks in front of my face and I was told again, I WAS going to suck them off.

Fifty five minutes later I entered our room to find my girlfriend asleep and gently snoring. I didn't wake her, nor did I tell her the next morning why I had a bruise on my face. When she did ask later on by the pool, I told her I'd slipped walking up the stairs to the room after getting the cigs. She nodded, smiled and told me I needed to be more careful.

What I didn't tell her, was during my time in the building site I'd been dragged into, I'd not only sucked on three strangers cocks, but I'd grown to enjoy giving them oral sex and even sucked off two of them a second time. Indeed by the time I was sucking on the last of their cocks, I was stroking my own to their encouragement. Feeling his cum slide down my throat, I came myself and even thanked them for giving me their seed.

One of the young men, saw me two days later outside of a shop and approached as my girlfriend was buying some sunglasses. He told me who he was and asked me if I'd like to repeat what I'd done for him two days before.
We just so happened to need cigs again that night. But instead of being forced to suck his dick, I got on my knees and willingly gave him head. As I sucked on his cock, he mentioned something about fucking me, but I wasn't having it, and he soon came in my mouth anyway.

I didn't see him or the others again, but I knew once we got back home, I'd want to see if my acceptance of sucking their dicks, was a sexual change in myself.

It has been. But not in the way I thought it might be. I've found I'm attracted to older men's cocks and not only that, but men who are lets say burly men.

I'm no longer with the girl in my confession. Not because of my new found love of cock, but because her sister found her bouncing up and down on her husband's cock.

I still enjoy having sex with girls, but I'm also now enjoying meeting up with older men for oral sex and recently one guy who's married, to have him fuck me.

I'm still in the closet, yet maybe soon I will be totally open and free to be myself.