Straight Female / 39
My situation at this time is that I am 39, I am pregnant, recently married to a divorced man who got me pregnant, with a prenup. I lived in Europe for 15 years and I have a 13 year old girl from my previous marriage. My ex I met in graduate school, he is French and we lived in France where he works for a French bank. He is a die hard soc****st and our relationship deteriorated from day one. Unfortunately my daughter has too many of his thoughts in her head. I returned to the US to be a stranger in my country. I worked in France for the Bank in a communications department but here the only job I could find was working in retail. I met my husband selling him a purse for his daughter.
My life is so different, I am having trouble with reality. My husband is 61 and he earns a very high salary and he married me because I have a pretty face, but he has voiced disappointment with my breasts, he expected more firmness. I am not 17. He is aggressive and authoritarian and dominant. My ex was also dominant but in a French way but my husband makes him look like a child. My mother assess me as needing a dominant man to keep me. I got pregnant by accident, I truly did not expect that I would be having sex when I went out with him. He married me because I am pregnant and he likes my daughter and he needs to have a woman look after him. I don't kid myself.
I find that I like sex with him, it is dominant sex but it makes me feel good, I wish he would spank me more often. Truthfully he did that, he spanked me and pushed my nose into the pillow. I try to be a bad girl but I don't like when he pretends to spank me. From time to time I get out of line and he sets me straight, that triggers me to get aroused and want sex. I don't tell him that, it's my secret. I just want a hard spanking right now.
He does want his cock sucked, something my ex wasn't particular about. I find the whole experience arousing in a very erotic sort of way. I suck his cock in open spaces, the kitchen, the living room, in the car. I get very aroused and sex afterwards makes me tremble inside. It is probably orgasms but trembling orgasms. Or it maybe because I am pregnant that I trigger like that.
My daughter resents his heavy hand with her but she needs it badly. He put her in a Christian Academy with other little rich girls. She has a friend, a girl who lived for a while in England when her father was stationed there. She resents him but she obeys him. She fought continuously with her father. She has never lived where the man of the house is the 'man of the house'. He knocks her soc****st ideas to the ground and reeducates her. She needs that, I sit and listen, I love how he restates her points and walks her up another ladder with his point of view. When he is done with her she will be a different person. For all her complaining she is very affectionate with him and wants her at all her activities. She calls him Papa, French for daddy.
I am maybe in a honeymoon phase right now, for the first time in a very long time I like being who I am. I am not as pretty, and my tits are not as firm, but I am still very sexual and he gets the beast in me to come out. Sucking his cock and getting prepared for sex, that is what I am thinking about right now. And if I get a spanking then I will have it all. I guess when he spanked me when he caught me by surprise he liked my reaction, I just can't fake it I want it and it isn't' a surprise. To me a hard spanking is like to him sucking his cock. It's foreplay for adults. If there is one thing I learned in France is to have sex for pleasure, yours, not only his.
My life is so different, I am having trouble with reality. My husband is 61 and he earns a very high salary and he married me because I have a pretty face, but he has voiced disappointment with my breasts, he expected more firmness. I am not 17. He is aggressive and authoritarian and dominant. My ex was also dominant but in a French way but my husband makes him look like a child. My mother assess me as needing a dominant man to keep me. I got pregnant by accident, I truly did not expect that I would be having sex when I went out with him. He married me because I am pregnant and he likes my daughter and he needs to have a woman look after him. I don't kid myself.
I find that I like sex with him, it is dominant sex but it makes me feel good, I wish he would spank me more often. Truthfully he did that, he spanked me and pushed my nose into the pillow. I try to be a bad girl but I don't like when he pretends to spank me. From time to time I get out of line and he sets me straight, that triggers me to get aroused and want sex. I don't tell him that, it's my secret. I just want a hard spanking right now.
He does want his cock sucked, something my ex wasn't particular about. I find the whole experience arousing in a very erotic sort of way. I suck his cock in open spaces, the kitchen, the living room, in the car. I get very aroused and sex afterwards makes me tremble inside. It is probably orgasms but trembling orgasms. Or it maybe because I am pregnant that I trigger like that.
My daughter resents his heavy hand with her but she needs it badly. He put her in a Christian Academy with other little rich girls. She has a friend, a girl who lived for a while in England when her father was stationed there. She resents him but she obeys him. She fought continuously with her father. She has never lived where the man of the house is the 'man of the house'. He knocks her soc****st ideas to the ground and reeducates her. She needs that, I sit and listen, I love how he restates her points and walks her up another ladder with his point of view. When he is done with her she will be a different person. For all her complaining she is very affectionate with him and wants her at all her activities. She calls him Papa, French for daddy.
I am maybe in a honeymoon phase right now, for the first time in a very long time I like being who I am. I am not as pretty, and my tits are not as firm, but I am still very sexual and he gets the beast in me to come out. Sucking his cock and getting prepared for sex, that is what I am thinking about right now. And if I get a spanking then I will have it all. I guess when he spanked me when he caught me by surprise he liked my reaction, I just can't fake it I want it and it isn't' a surprise. To me a hard spanking is like to him sucking his cock. It's foreplay for adults. If there is one thing I learned in France is to have sex for pleasure, yours, not only his.
