About 7 years ago it started. I had a great deal of trouble getting my cock hard and worse trouble keeping it hard. I had to go from fucking my wife for 30 minutes to hurrying up and fucking her for 3 minutes just so I could shoot before I went soft. I would continue in her, lick her to orgasm. Even the pills didn't help. I went to the doc and he put me on 2 different pills and after a few months that stopped working. Then the shots, directly into my cock shaft. That stopped working after about 4 months too. My wife, with my blessing started fucking other men, she has stayed as hot as when I met her at 22. She has an incredible body and is beautiful. So she had no trouble getting fucked, but she didn't like being a slut and just fucking guys. She wanted more, and it was with a lot of sorrow on both our parts, but total understanding on my part that she met someone and wanted to be with him exclusively. So I was alone and after over a year of not having anyone else touch my body, I gave in. Just to have some human contact, not to mention some sexual content, I started letting me fuck me and I blow them. I prefer married men as I feel safer with them. I've also found 3 friends with whom I dress as a woman as do they, and we get together for sex. I get fucked, feel like I'm with a woman, I suck which brings it back that it's a man instead. but it's better than nothing. They know I can only cum my jacking off, or sometimes with them jacking me. I do like getting together with each of them and having "girls" afternoons. Other than that there is one married guy who likes me to dress in lingerie when he has sex with me. He loves BJ's and loves anal sex, but his fat, prude of a wife won't do either for him. So I'm wife #2 for him.

I never wanted this, and I know that if I weren't sexually disabled I'd have never let a guy stick a cock into my mouth or my ass. My ex knows and understands why I do it, other than her and the ones I have sex with, no one knows. No one even knows that I can't have sex.