Way back when I was in college I discovered gay porn. Back then it was all in magazine form and I got my porn second hand from the man that ran the rat lab in the Biology department. He jacked off in front of me on the magazines, he licked the pictures, he offered me his dick. But I just took the magazines, licked and stained with his sperm and went to my apartment and jerked off.

After college I ordered my own. My job sent me to Denmark and I asked the cab driver if there was a place where I could by dirty magazines and he took me to this street and I found plenty of gay, very explicit gay porn. I bought magazines, took them back to my room and jerked off on them. I still have all those magazines, dozens of them, with pages stuck together where I jerked off to them.

The age of online came and I found lots of sites to go, all sorts of sites, but I still like the photos better than videos, black and white, vintage stuff, I'm a sucker for hard cock. In Brazil on one of my trips I got to cruising and found this site of Brazilian men. I got up the nerve and asked the driver of the car, he spoke English because that is what the company pays for, if there was a club where I could go, I wanted to a gay cabaret to see gay guys dance. He took me to a club and he said he would go in with me because they didn't speak English. We found a table and he called over a dancer and I got my first in your face gay dance. He paid him extra and he danced over me rubbing his cock on my face and I came in my pants.

We went back to the hotel and I didn't sleep all night searching for gay porn.

On one of my many trips later to Brazil I asked the driver, I had asked for that driver, to take me around. I told him that I wanted to suck one of the dancers and if that was allowed. We went to this other club and he asked for a booth with a curtain and he had two dancers come and dance for us I sucked my first cock. I didn't want to quit, but there is a time clock. My driver paid for one of the dancers and rented a room at this two star hotel and he came to pick me up in the morning. It was paid for, but how else do you start. And these dancers are picked because they are professionals.

My travels take me to lots of places, New York and Amsterdam, Singapore and Bangkok. It is a lot more difficult than you think hooking up with the right kind of place. In spite of my desire I have always been scared of getting rolled or stabbed or catching something really bad. In Copenhagen again, I know where to go for magazines and they are sill sold, I found an add for a club and went there to watch. English is not a problem and I paid for some dances, expensive, but I went back to my hotel to jerk off. I didn't want the porn I wanted to try something real.

I took a chance and asked the night doorman where a man could go and have a chance to meet someone who maybe liked to get together. He pointed me to this bar and he told me to be careful and not go for any of the young men who were there, but try and make friends with someone my age, who was also there looking for someone. But the young men had a reputation for being rough and sometimes they stole your watch. With apprehension I went and just as he said there were these young men there, very aggressive and I took a stool at the bar and an hour later a man came in and sat at the bar and we broke the ice, he was German and told me he came there from time to time and I was honest and told him it was my first time. We went back to his hotel, he had his own way and what he wanted, truthfully he was very headstrong and in charge. I sucked his cock but he wanted to fuck. He picked me up to fuck and when that was over I was asked to leave, he offered to pay me.

I do better now, I am more at ease and if it happens it happens, I hang out where the businessmen go, I work up a conversation, my method is tap on the shoulder, a tap on the hand, a tap on the knee. If they tap back well then it might happen, if they let me lay my hand on theirs then I feel that I can make the approach. Sometimes at my hotel and sometimes at theirs, sometimes it is quick and sometimes it is lots of fun. It is hit or miss. I don't consider myself experienced, I am pretty new at this having sucked my first cock in Brazil only five years ago. I am not looking for a relationship. I lost interest in porn and I want the real thing. Well that is not totally true, I still have my magazines and I can get very worked up with them.