I'm a gold star lesbian. I've never really been with a man, and I am in a super loving happy relationship with a wonderful woman who I totally adore.

Recently, I was in a situation where I was groped by a strange man in an elevator. I didn't stop him, or try and move away I just let it happen. He grabbed and squeezed my ass and my inner thigh and I just let him. I don't know why, and I felt a thrill from it.

After that, I've intentionally put myself in situations to invite being touched and groped and stuff. Doesn't always happen of course, but I keep 'escalating' I guess is the word. More revealing clothes, rougher places I go. Furthest so far was just last week, I went to a very low end part of town, rough club. I was grabbed a lot, at one point my top was even pulled down exposing my boobs and I was roughly fingered, and came from it.

I don't really want this, but it's like this urge this addiction to keep doing these things.