I go to college at FSU and during the summer break I met a man that my mother was taking around to buy a house. He is fifty three years old and he called me that night and asked me to meet him at this restaurant and have dinner with him. He took me to his hotel and I lost my virginity, not just vaginally but anally as well. At the time it was just sex but as the days went on I was more and more upset. He bought a house that my mother showed him and he moved in with his wife and three kids. Because we lives in the same town I see him all the time, and I run into his wife all the time.

I have remained loyal to him, and I always seem to want to have anal sex when I see him, I feel guilty but I have not dated another guy. I can't see how his wife doesn't suspect anything? We met them the other day at the country club, he was all over me, he calls me his pet realtor. Of course I do not have a license but still, he tells his wife that I showed him their house and I was the one to convince him to buy it. He won't tell me if he has ever had anal sex with his wife, it is a secret for him to know and me to find out. Well I want to know, she doesn't look like she would ever do it, but I don't either, and I don't look like I am seeing a married man either.

I would feel better knowing that she has been in my shoes, stuck to him like that. I don't understand why I am obsessed with that, I would just feel so much better knowing that she also has anal sex.