I've always had a fetish for being just absolutely helpless and tortured. Not to an extreme extent obviously, like being gutted open or something, but being choked, tied up, cut (perhaps a bit), and feeling lower than someone. Feeling pathetic. Recently I've been really into the whole "drowning" fetish. Having your head grabbed and shoved underwater, pulled up and pushed down whenever the other pleases. Being tied up while they dunk my head in water is almost a dream/fantasy. It'll ruin my makeup and I'll look ugly but fuck it.