I am totally in the closet. Since I was in high school I have known that I like having sex with another guy. In high school I had a friend who was from another school and we had sex all the time. In college I kept things to myself there but I got together with a guy who worked at the Firestone who ivied in my apartment complex. I work for a major company now and I get together with an older guy who drives a Snap On Tools truck. It has been my longest relationship. I won't say that I have pretended to like women but I have dated to places like the theater but never had sex with a woman, or ever even tried. The idea just doesn't do anything for me.

My current friend has invited me to join him on a trip to the Caribbean, he is going with two friends, another gay couple and he wants me to go with him. The plan is to rent a sailboat and sail around and have fun. I am very tempted but this will be the first public get together and I am scared that it will go out on social media, I don't know his friends. I am definitely not ready for that and I am quite comfortable in my little closet space. But giving up on a seven day vacation with my friend? It is very tempting, if only I could make sure that nothing gets out.