Ok, I have a problem of sorts. It has to do with my being a straight married man, in my early 60's, with adult children, and grandchildren. Ok, I've read a lot of stuff about older men, either married or widowed who has they grow older, start developing an interest in gay sex, porn, and stories. Most of them have a lot of gay materiel stored on their computers. I guess my question is, why as they age do they take an interest in the gay lifestyle? Many of the stories that I read on here are about these men going out on the sly to meet men for gay sex. I have no problem with gay people. Some of the nicest people I've met have been gay. Now this is where I come in. Since I was a boy, I've had a passing, secret interest in gay sex. When I was a teen, I could actually suck my own cock. And I did, a lot. As I grew older, I started dating girls, and have always been hetero. No one in my family, or friends has ever found out about my secret desire to suck another mans cock, and swallow his hot load. But I have dated a couple of girls from out of state who managed to coax my deepest sexual secrets out of me. They were totally turned on when I finally told them about my fantasy. But, I'm not attracted to men. Don't want to cuddle, and make love with a guy. Don't want to fuck his ass, or vice versa. In my fantasy's all I ever see in a mans midsection, and his beautiful stiff cock in my face. All I want is to suck a guys cock, and swallow all of his hot jizz. And it seems the older I get, the more this fantasy haunts me. Funny thing is, I try to put it out of my mind. Even though I dream of it, I try to suppress it. I love my wife, and yes she still loves to suck my cock. So its not that I never get any blowjobs. I still lust for beautiful women. But this bi, gay, thing, whatever it is keeps getting stronger and stronger. I wake up, and start thinking about it. Go to work, go to bed, when I'm driving, I dream of hooking up and sucking cock. I guess what I'm asking is, does anyone have any idea why a man who has been straight his whole life, is starting to lean toward becoming at the very least, a bisexual man? Even as I write this, I'm thinking of having a nice stiff cock fucking my mouth. Please help.