I find myself a little apprehensive now about a situation of my own design and choosing. My wife played the field when I met her, and she continued to do so as we dated. She didn't tell me, but I knew it from being friends with a couple of her bfs and exbfs, and it turned me on to find her pussy fucked before I licked her out, or feeling the cum in her as I did sloppy seconds, and if I caught a whiff or taste of cum on her breath as we kissed, I am sure there were times that a guy finished in her only moments before I arrived to visit.

She knows I enjoy that little bit of kink, and since we have been married, she has indulged me, at my request and choosing, to her "playing the field" again for my benefit. I make arrangements up to a couple times a month for her to have a guest before I get home, and I take up with her, after the guest has left. I still enjoy the feeling of her being freshly used, and knowing it, when I start to have sex with her. That is not the source of my apprehension.

I have always enjoyed anal play both giving and receiving, but an repulsed by the thought of a guy actually putting his cock any where near me in person. My wife has always fingered my back door as she sucked me, or on special occasions she has penetrated me with one of her toys. Even recently, early last year, she purchased a "strapless strapon" and indulges my kinkier side to have anal penetration.


She asked me a few weeks ago, if I would like to join my sloppy seconds with a real cock penetration. I was repulsed at the thought of having sex with a guy, but also very curious. We talked about it for weeks. Really I should say I have fantasized about it for weeks and brought it back up to make sure she really would be alright having a mmf.

My apprehension still, is that I am not attracted to guys at all, and am still repulsed at the idea of a guy's cock anywhere near me, but I am so turned on by the idea of seeing my wife having sex, and seeing his cum dripping out as he withdraws his cock from her that I asked if next time instead of enjoying a guest she would do a mmf. She has agreed and I have it setup for tonight.

There is my apprehension, I am still repulsed by the idea of having a guy's cock around me, but I am also incredibly turned on by the thought of seeing his seed oozing out of my wife, and the idea of licking his seed out of her while getting penetrated. I am afraid that I will do something to mess this up and ruin things for my wife, our guest, and my kinky fantasy!