I am quiet and introvert girl but this isn't helping me at all. Because i am 24 years old and i want someone to fuck me and i believe nobody would want. I am very guilty. I am not so attractive. Nobody ever fell in love with me. It's like i am invisible. Maybe it's my fault because from my 11-12 years i didn't want anyone to see me sexually. I always want to be modest and asexual. I always cover myself with large and long clothes so nobody could see my breasts or my butt. All of this was because i feel guilty and i didn't want to be or seem sexual at all.


As the years passed everyone had sexual attention even girls who were not so attractive in my opinion and then i start to think maybe i do something wrong. Because not even sexual harassment i had, not even someone tells me something inappropriate on the street. And when i hearing girls to complain about this i get mad at them. I mean really? Someone find you attractive and you complain about it? Did you prefer to be invisible? Nobody send me his penis in picture , i was the one i asked some boys to send them to me. Luckily they send them to me. And i automatically fantasize i ride them and put them in my mouth. I pressured my sexual desire a lot as a teenager and now it seems like i need sex not just want it.


I thought to pay one man to fuck me or two men or four men. When i watch porn i wish i was the woman in the video getting fucked by a lot of men and have orgasms. Would be a good idea if i had sex without knowing who is fucking me neither i see their faces and neither can they see my face. I just want to feel sexual pleasure and lot's of orgasms and i don't care who put his penis in me or how many guys would fuck me. And the idea of cum inside me makes me horny. Ages don't matter to me. I would accept for example a 15 year old boy and a 60 year old man. And because i am passive person i would be receptive someone to do what he wants with my body except to hurt me. But mostly i prefer lots of men with big cocks to fuck me hard back and forth and rip my tight pussy and butthole. And cum in my mouth or to every part of my body.


I am still guilty i feel like a slut. I admire sluts because they have the courage to have sex with anyone they want while i have not. I ending up masturbate a lot and i think i will buy a big virbrator or dildo to put it in me to feel something inside me. It's good for a woman to experience and feel inside her many kind of cocks. And the white ones and the black ones and all the kinds.

Sorry if my english were not good. English is not my native language.