I've been married for almost 11 years now. I love my husband, I really do. But there has been some changes lately that I'm not sure what to do about. Mainly I need to vent because I have no one else to talk to about it. I tried with my beat friend, but she didn't understand.
So when I married Gary, he was a bigger guy. Not morbidly fat, but I guess you can say he was obese. I'm a petite gal, always have been, but I've also always been attracted to bigger men. My father was heavier, so we're most of the guys I dated. I've just always felt more comfortable around heavy guys, even when I knew they weren't totally comfortable with their own bodies.
A little over a year ago, Gary really got into fitness. He's lost nearly a hundred pounds, toned up, works out daily. He is, for most everyone, a "hunk" now.
But for me, I miss my fluffy guy. We've always had an amazing sex Life, or at least I thought we did. Now it's just ok. He seems way more happy with his body and he should, I guess, he's worked hard. I still love having sex with him and, not to sound too vain, but his dick seems bigger now that there's not much flab around it. But still, I confess I find portly guys more arousing.
I met a guy at our local library, and we've been flirting. I get worried that I'll cross a line with the new guy. Just to have a bigger man again.
I know most of you who are reading this just think I'm insane. Maybe I am. It feels great to secretly confess though.