Gay Male / 52
I had the day off today and woke up to Carlos's hard cock in the late morning.It was easy to lube up and ride his dick til me blew his creamy load inside me.This weekend looking forward to Lila coming over and taking control of me sexually.Since last weekend when she first came over I have been looking forward to her watching me and Carlos having gay sex and her necking and cuddling with him in bed.
As I reflect on this change in my life I look at the origins of my gay desires.
and the attraction of females controlling me.For years I never acted on my desires until having sex with Carlos several months ago which I posted on this forum.Getting married,divorced and dating I lived a straight life.I would check out men's bulges especially older men's crotches and fantasize about sucking them.I would masturbate intermittently to gay fantasies but would not act on them.Instead sometimes as I was about to release with a woman an image of an older man would come into my head and it would make the orgasm more intense.But I did not realize how deep these desires went until Carlos.
After my divorce I was in my early 30's and had lived a pretty straight life.Then one day I went on an adult phone chat line which were popular before the internet came out.There were various women and men on these lines chatting and sometimes meeting.I chatted with this fuller figured blonde who was very open minded and sweet.She was seeing this older gent in his 60's for sex and company off and on.She was only around 30 and this kind of shocked me she was sleeping with a man that old.She said she enjoyed pleasing him and she had a bit of a daddy fixation.She would describe their sex life in detail on the phone and this would arouse me and her until she fingered herself to orgasm.She realized that describing him and his cock turned me on even more so she incorporated that into our chats.One day she had a wild idea.She suggested I come visit her at her apartment and not only would we chat and masturbate in person but that we could role play that she was him and I was her.She was fine masturbating me as long as we did not have intercourse and that she could even fuck me with a strap on dildo that was a similar size to his cock.She concluded I was gay curious and needed to feel the desires more but was not ready to be with a real man.She and I also talked about the cigarette fetish I had as I found smoking erotic especially when women smoke.Up to this point I had never smoked a cigarette and she was a smoker so she was willing to teach me how to smoke as well.So to prep for this meeting she asked me to do several things.She arranged for me to go to a local spa and get my body fully waxed.Also she knew a woman that sold women's clothes second along with bras breast forms and all of that and who also could do my makeup and supply wigs.I bought a package of her brand of cigarettes which were Benson and hedges lights 100s menthol and a nice lighter.She also said that she had some vhs porn of older men with younger women having sex.So when we met I was to be her...Julie and she was going to be Eugene her lover.
With excitement I went to the spa and clothing store the day of the meeting and got dressed and fully made up.I felt sexy in a weird way and shyly took a cab to her apartment. My fake nails were were painted bright red and my blonde wig looked good.Since she was 38c cup I had breast forms and bra that size.She met me at the door with short hair and in men's clothes but I could see the big boobs underneath.The first couple hours we chatted and she taught me how to smoke inhale and hold a cigarette daintily.She was cute in a mannish way as full figured women sometimes are.We drank red wine and watched her porn.We both started getting real horny and she told me as if I was her all the things that Eugene liked to do in bed.She smiled and said talking about him always makes her wet.She put on the strapon and made me get on my knees and suck it.She lubed me up gently annd pushed in slowly from behind.It hurt alot but after awhile the pain eased due to the red wine and my excitement.She fucked me as if she was Eugene and I was her.She masturbated me as she fucked me.I soon blew a big load into a towel on the floor then she took off the strapon and had me finger her to orgasm.After we smoked a cigarette and I left thanking her.We never chatted again.
As I reflect on this change in my life I look at the origins of my gay desires.
and the attraction of females controlling me.For years I never acted on my desires until having sex with Carlos several months ago which I posted on this forum.Getting married,divorced and dating I lived a straight life.I would check out men's bulges especially older men's crotches and fantasize about sucking them.I would masturbate intermittently to gay fantasies but would not act on them.Instead sometimes as I was about to release with a woman an image of an older man would come into my head and it would make the orgasm more intense.But I did not realize how deep these desires went until Carlos.
After my divorce I was in my early 30's and had lived a pretty straight life.Then one day I went on an adult phone chat line which were popular before the internet came out.There were various women and men on these lines chatting and sometimes meeting.I chatted with this fuller figured blonde who was very open minded and sweet.She was seeing this older gent in his 60's for sex and company off and on.She was only around 30 and this kind of shocked me she was sleeping with a man that old.She said she enjoyed pleasing him and she had a bit of a daddy fixation.She would describe their sex life in detail on the phone and this would arouse me and her until she fingered herself to orgasm.She realized that describing him and his cock turned me on even more so she incorporated that into our chats.One day she had a wild idea.She suggested I come visit her at her apartment and not only would we chat and masturbate in person but that we could role play that she was him and I was her.She was fine masturbating me as long as we did not have intercourse and that she could even fuck me with a strap on dildo that was a similar size to his cock.She concluded I was gay curious and needed to feel the desires more but was not ready to be with a real man.She and I also talked about the cigarette fetish I had as I found smoking erotic especially when women smoke.Up to this point I had never smoked a cigarette and she was a smoker so she was willing to teach me how to smoke as well.So to prep for this meeting she asked me to do several things.She arranged for me to go to a local spa and get my body fully waxed.Also she knew a woman that sold women's clothes second along with bras breast forms and all of that and who also could do my makeup and supply wigs.I bought a package of her brand of cigarettes which were Benson and hedges lights 100s menthol and a nice lighter.She also said that she had some vhs porn of older men with younger women having sex.So when we met I was to be her...Julie and she was going to be Eugene her lover.
With excitement I went to the spa and clothing store the day of the meeting and got dressed and fully made up.I felt sexy in a weird way and shyly took a cab to her apartment. My fake nails were were painted bright red and my blonde wig looked good.Since she was 38c cup I had breast forms and bra that size.She met me at the door with short hair and in men's clothes but I could see the big boobs underneath.The first couple hours we chatted and she taught me how to smoke inhale and hold a cigarette daintily.She was cute in a mannish way as full figured women sometimes are.We drank red wine and watched her porn.We both started getting real horny and she told me as if I was her all the things that Eugene liked to do in bed.She smiled and said talking about him always makes her wet.She put on the strapon and made me get on my knees and suck it.She lubed me up gently annd pushed in slowly from behind.It hurt alot but after awhile the pain eased due to the red wine and my excitement.She fucked me as if she was Eugene and I was her.She masturbated me as she fucked me.I soon blew a big load into a towel on the floor then she took off the strapon and had me finger her to orgasm.After we smoked a cigarette and I left thanking her.We never chatted again.
