I love my husband... I just don't think I'm in love with him anymore. I think the only reason we're still together is for our 4 year old daughter. I need advice so please, no hate comments. I haven't spoken to anyone about this... I'm not the type to open up.. It's never easy for me to just talk about my feelings.
Anyway, so we've been together since I was 19, he was 25. We've been best friends since I was 17. It's not the I don't love him, like I said... It's as if, somewhere down this road, we became cold. Sex used to be the best between us, we'd experiment, do all sorts of activities... And we were gamers, we'd spend hours gaming. After I gave birth, granted, I'd rarely have time... He would still hang out with our friends and the late nights would still continue. At first, I would be there too, after the lil one was asleep and we'd sit, laugh and drink till late hours at night... This went on for years, my body couldn't handle it. With the amount of work I HD during the day ND taking care of the daughter, I'd be spent by night. Sometimes I just wanted an intimate night between us.. But the friends would always come knocking.. So I gave up, I guess, I'd have a drink, two or four and if they still hadn't left, I'd go to sleep by myself...
We recently took a vacation and we experimented some more... Had threesomes and it was amazing. Sad part is, I did everything to make him cum, tried to tick everything on his sexual list.. In the end, I was left alone again, urges still there... He passed out from drinks and weed... So there I was, sat, horny af... And smoking up with his friend. One thing led to another and I had the most insane orgasm ever. I've never had that... Sex with my husband was always one goal, to make him cum, to please him... I'd never had someone pleasure me like that... And now that I've had it, I want it... I keep imagining it.. I feel like such a slut.. But I need sexual relief too, don't I?