Straight Female / 47
This is about me, my feelings and being in love with a younger man that is married. I kick myself and tell myself that I should not be in love with a married man but I am. I let him have sex with me, I go meet him, I wait until he calls, I make excuses for seeing him, but in the end I let him have sex with me. It feels good to have sex, it feels good in a way that is different from just the feeling of sex.
His wife is 32 and she has three girls, three, seven and nine. She is a school teacher but she has stayed home since her three year old was born. In my opinion she is beautiful, to me she is the most beautiful woman I know. I started having sex with him when she was pregnant with her three year old. I had sex with him on the night she went into labor.
I went to counseling and the same old story, just quit and tell him to leave you alone. That is like saying stop breathing. I can't. And he can't stop calling me, we talk every day, see each other at least three or four times a week, we work in the same building, and we have sex at least once a week. I live alone so I keep a place for him to come see me. I don't make excuses, what we are doing is cheating on his wife is wrong, I know that. But at least he is only cheating on her with me and he doesn't go to strip clubs or see other girls.
What I don't understand is why he cheats on her, she is so beautiful and why he has sex with me I am ten years older and believe me I am not beautiful like she is.
His wife is 32 and she has three girls, three, seven and nine. She is a school teacher but she has stayed home since her three year old was born. In my opinion she is beautiful, to me she is the most beautiful woman I know. I started having sex with him when she was pregnant with her three year old. I had sex with him on the night she went into labor.
I went to counseling and the same old story, just quit and tell him to leave you alone. That is like saying stop breathing. I can't. And he can't stop calling me, we talk every day, see each other at least three or four times a week, we work in the same building, and we have sex at least once a week. I live alone so I keep a place for him to come see me. I don't make excuses, what we are doing is cheating on his wife is wrong, I know that. But at least he is only cheating on her with me and he doesn't go to strip clubs or see other girls.
What I don't understand is why he cheats on her, she is so beautiful and why he has sex with me I am ten years older and believe me I am not beautiful like she is.
