Going back to the awakening of desire. My younger sister and I were never separated from each other and she has codependency issues. I was a college sophomore and my sister was a college freshman. I had met a boy in class and we were hanging around our dorm and he was sitting on my bed and I was sitting with him in his arms and my sister was on her bed in front of us. During the whole conversation my sister kept looking at me, then she put her hands on her boobs giving me this look as if I didn't realized the boy had my boobs in his hands. I wasn't going to all of a sudden jerk away so I sat there and my sister and I traded faces. After a while my sister suggested we go get some pizza so we got up to leave and on the way to the pizza parlor the boy puts his arm around my shoulder and keeps me there while we walked.

At the pizza parlor my sister calls me to the bathroom and tells me to cool it, I had already let him feel me up and now I was walking around like I was his girlfriend. Well during the pizza he put his hand on my thigh and I let him staring my sister down, she was so upset she got up and called me to the bathroom again. She asked me if I was going to let him fuck me. Why not? I let him fuck me in my dorm with my sister kicking the wall yelling at me for being stupid. I don't remember so much if I liked it or not, certainly I did not feel bad about it. My sister was very upset about it and sat on her bed and cried. It was college, what else can I say. I hurt her feelings that evening, more than I thought, hurt her real bad. I have spent the rest of our grown up lives making it up to her.

Sometime later, after we were both out of college and we had gone boyfriend free since that evening in my dorm, I told my sister that I had met a guy at work and he had asked me to go out. She agreed but she wanted to come to make sure I didn't lose my mind. We went to dinner at an Italian restaurant, not pricey but nice, he then suggested that we go down to the city park and that on weekends local bands played. My sister doesn't just tag along, she gets between me and any date I may have, she calls the shots about when to leave and if the guy we are with gets even a little bit friendly she is sure to call him out. That evening was no exception, except that I liked the guy and I told him about her and he was very respectful. When he took us home he did ask for a kiss and I gave him a well earned kiss.

I invited him to lunch the next day at our apartment, we would cook for him. He was on time and he brought flowers for both of us. My sister controlled herself and when he and I sat on the couch she sat in the chair with her usual long face. She then got up and said she was going to go do some work on the computer and left us alone but not without staring at me. He was polite and nice and we did get close and we kissed on the couch. At work where my sister was not around to get between us I told him about her and he said he understood. He kept courting me and he was always OK with her coming along, she had to accept that he kissed me and we held hands and I sat with him and his arm around me. One day we went to bed and my sister had to sit in the living room to wait. She was very upset, again she cried.

My new boyfriend put his foot down with her and told her that being a sister was fine but being possessive like that wasn't. She could either belong or not belong, she was in or she was out, but he wasn't going to be fighting her. He wanted her in but she had to accept the conditions. She says she allowed him, he says she was asking for it, she says he is bossy and domineering, he says she needs a lot of work, she says that is not what she expected, he says she will learn, she says it is not fair, he says why not. She gets in the middle, she has a hard time not being the focus of his attention, she is all over the place looking after him in the house, she hides her face from me when he is having sex with her, she likes to make love and I like her making love. For the first time since we were kids her focus is not solely on me. She still has a disapproving face when I make love, but like he says she will learn.