I have a problem. The only time I feel the urge to cheat is when it's risky. When I'm cycling off of my birth control, or changing types. Every time I have gone through that and had a few weeks where it was risky and I could possibly get pregnant, I cheat. Yet, during the same time I don't want to have sex with my husband at all. I swear something is wrong with me. I even make them cum inside me, even when they want to pull out.

I'm in a period like that now. Cycling off for a month. I'm about two weeks in, and have already had sex with four men. Why do I do this, and why can't stop myself even when my brain yells at me?