I was an ugly kid and a teen with tons of acne. I used to be bullied renlentlessly and now people treat me like I'm a temptress. I also survived a childhood sexual assault that left me broken for many years. My face finally cleared, my teeth are fixed, now I've got an hourglass figure, and I've finally come to terms with my past and developed a sexuality. I love my boyfriend and hope to marry him but it's getting really hard not to soak up all the attention. I want my body to be worshipped and to have the validation I never had growing up. I want to take back the power that was stolen from me that day. I keep reminding myself that my boyfriend loved me when no one else did but my heart is being a bitch and telling me to tease men. There's a void in me and it feels like I need hundreds of men to fill it up. I really hope I don't screw up. I'd hate myself if I ever hurt him.