I have come here many times but it is hard to talk about my life and I end up deleting everything. I like what I read here, mostly because it makes me feel normal, I am not sick as I am accused of being, I was labeled dick crazy in high school, slut in college and now I am called similar names, like the One Night Stand Princess. I like guys enough, well I like their dicks I really don't like them. I just need to get fucked and then adios and get the hell out of my bedroom. I don't go out with anyone I know and all of my one night stands are pickups. I live in a large city and there are more than one place to go to get picked up. I usually let men with money pick me up because they are not interested in me they just want to get laid.

I have one close girlfriend. She is married to Joe, the proverbial Joe who is always around, he fixes things, he baby sits while she and I go out for a drink, he does the laundry and gives her his check. Joe to me is so boring I can't stand to be around him for ten minutes. I've checked him out and there is nothing attractive about him either, I would not let Joe take me home. But my friend married him and she is stuck with a kid so let's say that she is day and I am night.

Once long ago when we were both single I sucked her pussy dry. We were just kidding around and we talked about it, she had actually been to a workout class at the gym and she told me that the instructor was a butch and the thought of her eating pussy turned her on. So I offered to eat her pussy, maybe she would like it and she could then work on the instructor and get the instructor to eat her pussy. I have only eaten her pussy, completely until she got off, I did it all fingered her, suck her tits, kissed her mouth and sucked her pussy and she got off. She did get it on with the instructor and she told me that the woman was way too aggressive for her. I don't understand then why she can take it from a man, men are way too aggressive when they want to fuck.

Lately I have been thinking about her like that, I would like to eat her pussy again, to kiss her and make love to her tits and just give it to her until she gets off. I want to make her cum, I did once I don't see why I can't make it happen again. I know she is bored with Joe, like I said he does laundry, and he has never chased her around the house to fuck her. I know a lot about their sex life because she tells me about it, every time they have sex she tells me, she grades it a 2 or maybe a 3, even on her honeymoon she texted me 2s and 3s. Most guys I go to bed with are 2s and 3s, but some are 5s and 6s. With her I know I can be a 9. She is shy about it and she is married so she doesn't want to do something that could be a problem. Joe is her problem not me.

I am definitely not that instructor who went too far with her, I can measure myself and I know her intimately and I want to be her 9, to make the stars burst. I am tired of one night stands, she is my life but Joe is in the way and he will never leave her. If she wasn't married I would get down on one knee and propose to her, you can do that now and I would certainly do it. I know myself, I am not dick crazy anymore, I just do it out of habit because being alone hurts. I have not hidden my affection for her or failed to tell her out right that I am in love with her and as far as I am concerned she is my significant other. I just need her to say goodbye to Joe.

I am going to sign off with Waiting to be her 9.