I've been this way longer than I care to admit. I am turned on by women, I use to say I am turned on by girls but I got in trouble one day and accused of things that aren't true. I have always only been turned on by girls my age or now that I am a bit older I am turned on by girls in that sweet age group but I only act out on girls that are old enough. Over Christmas I spent some time with my maternal aunt and she has a girl who is fourteen and she had both tits and ass and she and I shared a room and all I could think about all night was seeing her braless in her tight panties putting on her nightgown and her being asleep in the bed beside me. But like I said I don't act out with girls unless they are old enough, plus she is my first cousin so that would be i****t.

This one time only I convinced a guy I know to take me to a strip joint. The girl that danced for us, I guess she was like nineteen and she had these tits that drove me crazy, but the rule is no touching so I sat on my hands. She bent over and let us see her ass crack with nothing but a G-string and her sweet pussy cupped in her thong and it was all I could do to restrain myself from grabbing her and go for her pussy right there. But again, the rule is no touching. When we left I was so turned on I would have gone for any pussy I could find, but the guy I was with wanted to go to a bar so we went to a bar and I had to stand around looking because I was with him and he doesn't know about my proclivity.

It is not that I am a pussy hound, I am not but when I get past horny and I was over Christmas I was so horny I couldn't sleep, my little cousin is so ripe it hurts to see her and not pull her down and eat her pussy all up. I can just imagine how sweet she is, I could lay her down, spread her out and start with her tummy and work my way down over her mound while I fingered her and then take her clit and suck it hard and twirl it with my tongue and then lap up her pussy once the wetness is running down her ass crack. At least that is what I thought about all night.

It is not my fault that I am a lesbian and it is not my fault that I like girls, especially if they are so nice and sweet and young, for me nineteen is too old but as I said I can't act out on what I like so I keep myself away from girls like my cousin, except when I have no choice but to sleep in the same room with her.

So I needed relief and that is why I asked this friend of mine to take me to a strip club because where was I going to meet a girl on Christmas Eve. I am away from home, and I am surrounded by my cousin, surrounded by her and she is so nice I get wet just thinking of her, I got to hug her when we first said hello, her tits are nice and firm and her butt is nice and firm, and I have to let go. Really, it is like a game that is being played and all I can do is call out No Fair. And she is my cousin, which is double No Fair.

When I got home after Christmas I went trolling down to this bar that I know always has lonely lesbian girls, except they are not girls they are thirty something and they are no longer sweet and their tits aren't firm and their ass isn't firm but they do have pussy and sometimes I just want pussy like right after Christmas. I went trolling and I didn't land anything, so I went home and had to content myself by Face Timing my cousin. I shouldn't feel like this, it is both a sin and it is illegal but I can't help feeling like this. All I wanted for Christmas was for her to come over and sleep with me but all I could do was lay there and listen to her sleep.