Warning This is a story about truth not jump hump suck so if you are not into truth then move along.
It all started when my soon to be wife after living together for 4 years and planning to marry met another man and left without much explanation. We had moved into a house I bought with resigning bonus I had gotten while in the Army and had socked it away in the bank. She took what she wanted and said had no interest in the house.
I was working at a factory day shift foreman and in no way could afford the house on my own. A guy I worked with was looking for a place closer to work so he moved in so I could keep the house and he was closer to work.
I had known him from work but not really personally. We got along ok and things went well until one day I came home to find a nude man in the kitchen that I had never met. I was about to freak out on him when my room mate came running out and told me it was a friend. The next day we talked and I told him if he had people over it would be nice if they did not walk around nude. he told me he was gay and it was a friend with benefits. I am cool with people doing their thing but not crazy about finding strangers walking around nude. he said the guy was Jeff a buddy he had known for years.
I had never had feelings or thoughts about other men so its something I did not understand but to each his own. That night in the tub Jeff standing in the kitchen kept popping into my head. I had taken a mental picture of him in my mind and for some reason kept thinking about what I saw. He was average guy not built not fat he was hairy but not like lie a fur jacket. His legs where muscled and the cutest feet. What the fuck why was I picturing him standing there? I smoked a joint to clear my head. That night I dreamed about Jeff in the dream he and I went to an amusement park and rode rollercoasters laughing as the coaster went up and down and in and out of dark tunnels. We ate cotton candy from the same stick. I woke up and remembered the dream as if it had been real.
I had taken the next week off from work using up some vacation days to work on things around the house. I was fixing one of the gutters when I heard a smooth low voice say need a hand. I looked down from the ladder to see Jeff standing there smiling up at me. He grabbed the other ladder and helped me he spent the rest of the day helping me. He was real easy to talk with and don't take this wrong but not what I had come to know was gay acting. The guys I had ran into in the army were either very fem or always on the make to suck your cock. Hope that don't upset anyone but just how I looked at it at the time.
Jeff and I spent most of that week working on my house and buddying around. At the end of the day we would set on the deck and drink some beers and chat about life. I asked if he liked gambling? he said he had not done much so I asked if he would like to go to the casino the next day after he got off work. We made planes for later that next day.
Something about him made me want to be around him as much as I could. We went to casino and had a good time when it came time to head home my fucking car took a shit so we got a hotel room for the night as the garage could not get the parts until the next day. We got something to eat then headed to the room. I was feeling nervous not sure why at the time but in the back of my mind was almost hopping maybe something would happen maybe he would suck my cock I was thinking. We sat on our beds and talked I asked all sorts of questions about him and being gay. He was real cool about it and answered all my questions. After a while he asked if I had ever or ever even thought about being with another guy. I said no and he said oh then that answered his next question. It was a while with no talking and I could hear myself ask what question he wanted to ask. He smiled and said well I was going to ask if you.... Oh forget it its not important he said. I tried to get him to tell me but he would not. He changed the subject and soon we both feel asleep.
The next day I drove him home and dropped him off at his apartment he said he would give me a ring and soon disappeared into his apartment complex, I drove off but my thoughts were on him his voice his smile his scent. What the fuck was going on with me? When I got home I felt wound up so smoked a joint to calm down. My room mate came in and said he wanted to talk. He asked what was up with Jeff and I? we are friends I said. I had not even thought that me being friends with him may be a problem with them. I said sorry if I stepped over a line He smirked and said well I just want to let you know Jeff is a special person not sure what your thoughts are but don't use him or abuse him. Before I could say anything he walked out of the room.
Jeff did not call I waited but no call. I was feeling like a teenager waiting for a crush to call. I could not wait any longer I called him and asked what was up and why had he not called? he said he thought I may not want him to. I said why the hell would you think that? he said I was acting strange and he thought his being gay was the reason. I asked if he would meet so we could talk? we met up at a bar in town and found it to be crowded and loud. I suggested we take a walk in the park and talk. We walked and I told him what I had been feeling and thinking and that it was messing with my head. we sat on a bench and watched the swans on the pond. He leaned over and kissed me on the lips. It shocked me but I did not pull away I started to kiss back and put my hand around to his back and pulled him close. His warmth next to me and the scent of him he smelled of a musky spice. His lips on mine was electric. Then it hit me what I was doing and I pulled away dude I said I don't know if I can do this. Jeff looked hurt but said he understood. I drove him home and as he got out of the care I touched his hand and said I am sorry he smiled and said its all good and closed the door. As I pulled away an emptiness took over I felt alone and sad. Driving home his kiss was on my mind I had never felt that way kissing anyone else. my thoughts were a mess I was fighting with myself mentally telling myself it was not possible to have feelings for a man. Jeff did not call that week and I left it at that thinking it was better that way. I thought about him all day at work and picked up the phone many times to call him but did not.
A few weeks went by and I was falling into a depression nothing felt right and I felt an emptiness I have never felt in my life. That weekend I went to the park and sat on the bench were he had kissed me. In my mind I hopped he would show up and I could put my arms around him and hold him tight to me. He never showed so I went home. my room mate came in from being out and saw me in the den. he popped his head in and said hi. I asked how his night was? He said it was fun. he started to walk away and turned and walked into the room. he stood there and said call him dumb ass he has been waiting by the phone. My eyes lit up and my heart jumped really I said. yes idiot and by the way that look in your eyes I have not seen in weeks. I looked down at my feet feeling embarrassed but excited he wanted me to call. I called the phone rang and rang no answer. I left a message plz call me I said I need to talk to you.
Sunday morning I was woken by my phone it was Jeff the sound of his voice made me feel so warm inside. he asked if I was doing anything that day? I said no nothing but walking in the park. He asked if i could use some company? I said heck yes.
I was sat on the bench where he first kissed me as I saw him walking the close he got the more I wanted to jump and run to him. he sat next to me I said I missed you he smiled. I said I don't know what is going on with me but all I know is a am miserable without you. He leaned in and we kissed ahhh there it was that electric feeling. I hugged him close to me and said in his ear I don't want to hurt you he pulled back looked in my eyes and said you wont. that is how I found my soul mate that is how I found out what true love is. We took it slow and did the old fashioned dating even with my constant urging for more he made me wait all we did was make out and some rubbing on each other in our clothing. We slept together twice but just cuddling the man was driving me insane but just being near him kept me happy. It was months until anything sexual happened. I was nervous as I had no clue what to do.
The night we made love it just all fell into place we moved as one and it was amazing all my worrying about how what who where was all for nothing it was so natural like we had been making love to each other all our lives. Last week I asked Jeff to marry me he said yes and soon we will take each others names. I have chosen to take his last name and he mine as they are the same anyway funny we had the same last name. sorry if this is not all sexy and horny just my truth I am in love with Jeff and don't care who knows it.