My fantasy has always involved vulnerability. Since a young age I've loved non consensual erotica. I like the idea of being owned, being dominated. But I enjoy r**e fantasies because of the power dynamic involved. I get off on watching the man become overcome with lust and pumping away into his victim, not caring about anything but fucking.

I also love daddy/daughter scenarios. I've always had daddy issues, and my husband is 22 years older than me and loves to act out these fantasies with me. But lately, in my head, the sexiest part of our relationship is the age difference. I really love the thought that when I was 7, he was a grown man. Sometimes when I think about that, I think about him fucking me then, back when I was the most vulnerable and helpless. I imagine I would have loved it, because I was very sexually curious and loved daddies even then. Sometimes I think about other men doing it too, taking advantage of me and abusing me. I think about their faces while they drive their cocks into my pussy, and the lust I imagine makes me crazy. I also think about me being confused, but loving it the whole time, because I know I would have. I try not to think about it because it sounds pretty wrong, but it turns me on so much is it ok since it's just a fantasy?
Am I just a pervert?